I let myself fall into a lie
I let my walls come down
I let myself smile and feel alive
I let my walls come down
No matter how I try I don't know why
You push so far away
You wrapped your hands tight around my heart
And squeezed it full of pain

[Chorus]
With this knife I'll cut out the part of me
The part that cares for you
With this knife I'll cut out the heart of me
The heart that cares for you

I can't believe the way you took me down
I never saw the pain
Coming in a million broken miles
Like poison in my veins

[Chorus]

The hate and the fear
The nightmares that wake me up
In the tears
The nightmares and (the hate)...


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    Well.. For me this song is very, very special.. A painfull reminder of my past..

    I was very much in love with this guy.. And he told me, that he felt the same about me.. And I believed him.

    • "I let myself fall into a lie"

    And when things started to go wrong, I just pretented to be ok with it.. That he didn't mean that much to me at all.. But inside I was hurting.

    • "I let myself smile and feel alive I let my walls come down."

    And no matter what I did.. I fell deeper into my depression, and everytime I thought of him, I felt like something was dying inside of me.. I've never felt so bad, as I did at that time..

    • "You wrapped your hands tight around my heart and squeezed it full of pain."

    And, well.. I began hurting myself to get rid of the pain inside..

    • "With this knife i'll cut out the part of me The part that cares for you. With this knife i'll cut out the heart of me The heart that cares for you."

    So for me, the chorus is about self-injury.. Because I used to think, that doing this would help me get rid of all the pain, I kept inside.. And once and for all, make this guy dissapear, so he would no longer haunt my mind with bad memories..

    And now that I've come trough, and no longer think of him that often, it seems crazy, that I could feel so bad about it.. He wasn't even worth it..

    • "I can't believe the way you took me down"

    ... ...

    I love this song. It's a great song.. And, yeah.. I really feel it deep inside of me.. Because it holds all these memories..

    Sickerthon May 22, 2004   Link

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