I let myself fall into a lie
I let my walls come down
I let myself smile and feel alive
I let my walls come down
No matter how I try I don't know why
You push so far away
You wrapped your hands tight around my heart
And squeezed it full of pain

[Chorus]
With this knife I'll cut out the part of me
The part that cares for you
With this knife I'll cut out the heart of me
The heart that cares for you

I can't believe the way you took me down
I never saw the pain
Coming in a million broken miles
Like poison in my veins

[Chorus]

The hate and the fear
The nightmares that wake me up
In the tears
The nightmares and (the hate)...


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    This song is about a relationship that ended because of a betrayal. I can completely relate to this because I have wanted to cut out the part of my heart that cared for my best friend of 2 years when she gave me up as a sacrifice for hundreds of new friends

    manyamoreon April 10, 2004   Link
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    Well.. For me this song is very, very special.. A painfull reminder of my past..

    I was very much in love with this guy.. And he told me, that he felt the same about me.. And I believed him.

    • "I let myself fall into a lie"

    And when things started to go wrong, I just pretented to be ok with it.. That he didn't mean that much to me at all.. But inside I was hurting.

    • "I let myself smile and feel alive I let my walls come down."

    And no matter what I did.. I fell deeper into my depression, and everytime I thought of him, I felt like something was dying inside of me.. I've never felt so bad, as I did at that time..

    • "You wrapped your hands tight around my heart and squeezed it full of pain."

    And, well.. I began hurting myself to get rid of the pain inside..

    • "With this knife i'll cut out the part of me The part that cares for you. With this knife i'll cut out the heart of me The heart that cares for you."

    So for me, the chorus is about self-injury.. Because I used to think, that doing this would help me get rid of all the pain, I kept inside.. And once and for all, make this guy dissapear, so he would no longer haunt my mind with bad memories..

    And now that I've come trough, and no longer think of him that often, it seems crazy, that I could feel so bad about it.. He wasn't even worth it..

    • "I can't believe the way you took me down"

    ... ...

    I love this song. It's a great song.. And, yeah.. I really feel it deep inside of me.. Because it holds all these memories..

    Sickerthon May 22, 2004   Link
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    this songs surounds my relationship at this point . about me running in a lie... thinking that she loved me... when she really didnt love me anny more ... it gets me the creeps . its how i react...laying awake at night...just wanting to go away from her..but i cant... thats why this song i s so fucking energic... because its fucking hard removing something you love...

    lamaon October 18, 2004   Link
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    I know this song can get really personal and perfectly fit a certain bad relationship, but for me it's about life in general. No matter how good your life is, everyone falls for lies. Everyone who's guarded their thoughts and emotions has broken that once, and as result been hurt worse. And everyone knows what it is to feel pain. Without the knowledge of pain, you aren't human.

    But the chorus and the bit at the end are what really strike me hard. It can be interpreted as suicide, I suppose, but I tend to think more along the lines of "self-mutilation" like Sickerth does. Which is something I can relate to...

    LaDiabloon November 20, 2004   Link
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    Sickerth tht wus sad cries

    i never really listend to this song till i read wut u guys had to say, and than begin listening to it..agai, and again, and again and so on, its so spiritual on stories of wut go into my mind, i think about having relasioships, going out into the world...not expecting it..and getting stabbed in the back...cutting myself...the wrists, the throat...stabbing myself...ripping out what emotions i had for some1 its weird isnt it? wut someone can just think about over a song

    Peedyon August 31, 2005   Link
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    this song is real! SMile empty soul kix ass! -rock on!

    jsyn0001on June 18, 2003   Link
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    i agree with this but also the fact is that this song isn't the one that made them good its one of those songs that makes you think and say who can this actually realte to! I hope they'll be around for a while.

    ryang11r0yon April 08, 2004   Link
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    This song is greatness personified. Or something. I dunno, I love it though.

    rtc12on April 10, 2004   Link
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    This song is my favorite SES song. I don't know why. Probably because it describes my current relationship soo well.

    Not_Like_The_Reston April 29, 2004   Link
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    I agree with Slickerth because I feel the exact same way. I just got the cd and my friend was like I like #10 cause this kid broke my heart and then lik a couple weeks later my heart got broken and this was the only song I'd listen to for like a week. Pathetic. I know.

    B_ITCH666on June 24, 2004   Link

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