This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Now that I'm dead and gone
Look at me I'm floatin' like the breeze
With my roots strong like trees
Unfiltered in your memories
Holdin' a candle light vigil
Sayin' a prayer my name is Grace
Buried with the paint on my face
I put the chase up long enough
I live the lifestyle wrong and tough
And now my life span's up
I give a fuck I'm bout to run it in the after life
And hopefully they put my soul in the butcher knife
If I was to die
It'd make a lot of people happy
No funeral, possesions
No plot at the cemetery
Finally, I can be alone in my own world
The wagons come take me away from the Killing Fields
If I was to die
Would you finally shut your mouth?
Understand what I am
Understand what I'm about
Like curse
Sets me up high on your pedestal
I'm about to find out
(Shaggy it's time to go)
I wanna die so I can see the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die take me to the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die so I can see the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die take me to the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die, maybe I'll get angel wings
So I can cut 'em off, cook 'em up
I have some hella wing dings
I'd take my hallo off, get myself a ladder
Hang it on the wall
Maybe you'll think it's a gold record
Death, everybody follow my hearse
Why does everybody always gotta go and die first?
Before their homies are missin' 'em
And family members kissin' 'em
Everybody even enemies stop dissin' 'em
I wanna die, so I can haunt my buddies
Stand behind them in the mirror
With my eyes all bloody
Stick my long, black
Cold tongue all in they ear
And be like, I'm only playin'
And disappear
I wanna die, and have everything answered
What happened to my father?
Why was I a bastard?
What is thunder?
Is it really God bowlin'?
And nightime's a blanket
And the stars are the holes in it
I wanna die so I can see the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die take me to the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die so I can see the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die take me to the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
Your answers are unneccesary you understand
And never question the emotions of an unstable man
I got the petals of a Lotus
And the pedal to the floor
Followin' a black hearse
In the rain through a thunder storm
Never once did I envision me
Bein' stuck in such a situation
He made decisions, now his spirit levitatin'
I can see him wavin' at me
Through the window of the hearse
He's cryin' blood, it all stops
And it gets worst
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust
At least that's what I was told
When I was on the come up
Been to the grave, and it ain't no joke
Resurfaced to the earth with the spirits I invoke
Cut down in my prime, when my clock got hit
Now I'm ridin' in the back of a hearse and shit
Darkness, pitch black, never seein' no one
And the Devil got his darkest demons ridin' shotgun
I wanna die so I can see the otherside
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die take me to the otherside
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die so I can see the otherside
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die take me to the otherside
I wanna die so I can fly
Take me away
Take me with you
Take me away
Take me with you
Take me away...
Look at me I'm floatin' like the breeze
With my roots strong like trees
Unfiltered in your memories
Holdin' a candle light vigil
Sayin' a prayer my name is Grace
Buried with the paint on my face
I put the chase up long enough
I live the lifestyle wrong and tough
And now my life span's up
I give a fuck I'm bout to run it in the after life
And hopefully they put my soul in the butcher knife
If I was to die
It'd make a lot of people happy
No funeral, possesions
No plot at the cemetery
Finally, I can be alone in my own world
The wagons come take me away from the Killing Fields
If I was to die
Would you finally shut your mouth?
Understand what I am
Understand what I'm about
Like curse
Sets me up high on your pedestal
I'm about to find out
(Shaggy it's time to go)
I wanna die so I can see the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die take me to the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die so I can see the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die take me to the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die, maybe I'll get angel wings
So I can cut 'em off, cook 'em up
I have some hella wing dings
I'd take my hallo off, get myself a ladder
Hang it on the wall
Maybe you'll think it's a gold record
Death, everybody follow my hearse
Why does everybody always gotta go and die first?
Before their homies are missin' 'em
And family members kissin' 'em
Everybody even enemies stop dissin' 'em
I wanna die, so I can haunt my buddies
Stand behind them in the mirror
With my eyes all bloody
Stick my long, black
Cold tongue all in they ear
And be like, I'm only playin'
And disappear
I wanna die, and have everything answered
What happened to my father?
Why was I a bastard?
What is thunder?
Is it really God bowlin'?
And nightime's a blanket
And the stars are the holes in it
I wanna die so I can see the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die take me to the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die so I can see the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die take me to the other side
I wanna die so I can fly
Your answers are unneccesary you understand
And never question the emotions of an unstable man
I got the petals of a Lotus
And the pedal to the floor
Followin' a black hearse
In the rain through a thunder storm
Never once did I envision me
Bein' stuck in such a situation
He made decisions, now his spirit levitatin'
I can see him wavin' at me
Through the window of the hearse
He's cryin' blood, it all stops
And it gets worst
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust
At least that's what I was told
When I was on the come up
Been to the grave, and it ain't no joke
Resurfaced to the earth with the spirits I invoke
Cut down in my prime, when my clock got hit
Now I'm ridin' in the back of a hearse and shit
Darkness, pitch black, never seein' no one
And the Devil got his darkest demons ridin' shotgun
I wanna die so I can see the otherside
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die take me to the otherside
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die so I can see the otherside
I wanna die so I can fly
I wanna die take me to the otherside
I wanna die so I can fly
Take me away
Take me with you
Take me away
Take me with you
Take me away...
Lyrics submitted by nikuku
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Love this song, I've always thought what life was like after death, and sometimes wanted to die just to know, never actaully tried to kill myself lol but yea, soon as I heard this I fucking fell in love with it.
and I'm not even into the whole "juggalo" and "juggalettes" thing