All My Life

I thought this song over more - I still think it was meant to be about oral sex, but it could easily about suicide, SI, etc. heres my analysis...

"All my life I've been searching for somethin' Somethin' never comes, never leads to nuthin' Nothin' satisfies, but I'm gettin' close Closer to the prize at the end of the rope"

Continually searching for something to stop the pain, can't ever find something that satisfies, but he's resorting to more extreme methods, getting closer to death, the "prize at the end of the rope."

"All night long I dream of the day When it comes around, and it's takin'away Leaves me with the feelin' that I fear the most Feel it come to life when I see your ghost"

He still has dreams of a better future, but every day he feels like it's stolen from him again, leaving him depressed, and he thinks about someone close to him who had committed suicide (the ghost) or maybe seeing his own ghost, thinking about suicide.

"Calm down, don't you resist Your such a delicate wrist And if i give it a twist Somethin' to hold when I lose my grip"

OK this is cheesy but thinking about personal experience it seems simple, he's thinking about slitting his wrists, and he realizes he's left little cuts in one from the nails of his other hand...well thats what it means to me as ive done that tons of times.

"Will i find something in there, to give it just what it needs another reason to bleed One by one, Hidden up my sleeve"

In there...the blood vessels, trying to find something he needs in cutting, addicted to that now and it's just another stress that makes him need to cut more, "one by one up my sleeve" is the little scars from cutting

"Hey, don't let it go to waste I love it but, i hate that taste Weight keeping me down"

This doesn't fit really with a guy, but if u consider it from a girl's perspective it would work fine, but since i've been using a guy as the narrator ill continue with the guy. its about bein bulemic, another form of self mutilation - just think about it its obvious if u take those 3 lines by themselves.

"Will I find the believer Another one who believes Another one to decieve Over and over, down on my knees"

Trying to find other people in the same situation, that "believe" in cutting - I've seen tons of these sad individuals, was one for a while.

"If I get any closer, And if you open up wide And if you let me inside On and on, I've got nuthin' to hide"

This is the most obvious looking oral sex reference, but it could just mean spilling ur guts to someone, or maybe religion, giving yourself to God. Religion could be the thing he needs.

"Done, done; on to the next one Done, done, and I'm on to the next one"

The song is what he's thinking about while he's cutting himself...he's done with one slash, and he goes on to do it again.

There ya go...im a twisted freak.