"Speculum" as written by and Kris David/chavez Kohls....
There's so many people dying
You complain about your situation
What about me?
Half the world wouldn't know
What it's like to lose your seed
Maybe you can understand

(How I feel)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me

The guilt has lasted years, still cry
It was all planned out
Why was I last to know?
Don't you trust in me?
The table's cold, it's too late
To make up for these mistakes
Maybe you can't understand

(How I feel)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me
(How I feel)
If I would have known
I can't say what I would have done
If you could forgive
I'd like to rest with you someday

(How I feel)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me
(How I feel)
If I would have known
I can't say what I would have done
If you could forgive
I'd like to rest with you someday


Lyrics submitted by Metal6Hell6Maker6

"Speculum" as written by Dave Deroo Mark Chavez

Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Warner/Chappell Music, Inc.

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    General CommentThis song is actually about the lead singer's girlfriend getting an abortion and not telling him. I am part of the Adema Street Team and this is what he says the song is about.
    RedAssassinon February 08, 2002   Link
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    General CommentDamn it, stop spreading rumors. You have the idea right, but it wasnt Marky that it happened to. It was either Tim (guitarist) or Kris (drummer). Believe me. I heard it straight from the source (Marky himself...i was on the phone with him).
    Phyxiuson February 21, 2002   Link
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    General CommentHe said it was one of his bandmates (he wouldn't say who), not necessarily anyone you mentioned.
    Aerionon May 13, 2002   Link
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    General CommentWhat I love about this song is that it captures his dispair in being unable to express what he feels...
    I cannot reach that soul
    I can't say what I would have done
    The most sincere emotions cannot be expressed in words
    pravdawglerzon June 03, 2002   Link
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    General Commentyep aerion has it right
    punkindrublic18on June 18, 2002   Link
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    General Commentthis song reminds me of why i continue living. even though it is about his girlfriend getting an abortion, it helps me not give in. this world is getting harder and harder to fit into and easier and easier to slip away from...
    FUKEDUPBRDRon June 30, 2002   Link
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    General CommentThis is a pretty good song to listen to when you're angery, mad, sad or upset. At least I believe so. I think it takes a lot of anger out of me. And all my friends know that I have a lot of anger. I think that this song is pretty good and from the lyrics to other songs that Adema has written it looks like the lead singer has a lot of anger and how he takes it out is in his music. If you would ask me I think that a lot of they're song have an angery toon to them. Well I just thought this was pretty good and I like it some! O well. HeHe!:)
    ~aMbEr*
    SMUSER19348on July 11, 2002   Link
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    General CommentThats so cool cuz I thought that's what the song was all about but I had no idea I was right or even that it happened to a band member. I swear, just thinking of going through all the emotions and feelings he did makes me wanna ball out into tears. I hope this doesnt happen to me.... prolly one of my worst fears...
    blinkbomberon July 29, 2002   Link
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    General CommentDamn good song.
    KoRnKid51on August 10, 2002   Link
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    General Commentthis song used to not be my favorite until I found out its real meaning now its worth much more.
    "The table's cold, it's too late
    To make up for these mistakes"
    I cired several times when thinking about this
    fondlon August 29, 2002   Link

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