This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend, whoa
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them
And you know it makes me sick to be on that list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
You say you're gonna burn before you mellow
I will be the one to burn you
Why'd you have to go and pick me?
When you that we were different, completely
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend, whoa
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend, whoa
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them, whoa
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
And I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
Your wildness scares me
So does your freedom
You say I can't stand the restrictions
I find myself trying to change you
If you were meant to be my lover I wouldn't have to
And I feel so mean, I feel in between
'Cause I'm about to give you away
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
(For someone else to take)
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
(Am I making a mistake?)
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them
(All the time that we spent)
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girl, friend
And I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
I know I messed up
I'm about to give you away for someone else to take
I'm about to give you away for someone else to take
We keep repeating mistakes for souvenirs
And we've been in between the days for years
And I knew that when I say you are going to die
I know I'm gonna want you and you know why
It's gonna kill me to see you with the next girl
'Cause I'm the most gorgeously jealous kind of ex-girl
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend, whoa
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend, whoa
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them (all the time we spent)
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
And now I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
I should have thought of that before we kissed
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them
And you know it makes me sick to be on that list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
You say you're gonna burn before you mellow
I will be the one to burn you
Why'd you have to go and pick me?
When you that we were different, completely
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend, whoa
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend, whoa
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them, whoa
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
And I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
Your wildness scares me
So does your freedom
You say I can't stand the restrictions
I find myself trying to change you
If you were meant to be my lover I wouldn't have to
And I feel so mean, I feel in between
'Cause I'm about to give you away
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
(For someone else to take)
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
(Am I making a mistake?)
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them
(All the time that we spent)
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girl, friend
And I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
I know I messed up
I'm about to give you away for someone else to take
I'm about to give you away for someone else to take
We keep repeating mistakes for souvenirs
And we've been in between the days for years
And I knew that when I say you are going to die
I know I'm gonna want you and you know why
It's gonna kill me to see you with the next girl
'Cause I'm the most gorgeously jealous kind of ex-girl
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend, whoa
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend, whoa
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them (all the time we spent)
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
And now I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
I should have thought of that before we kissed
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I agree (except I don't know Josh Allen)! It's like she knew that this guy was a player, and she knew of all the awful things he put other girls through, yet he was irresistable! I hate it when that happens!
doesnt everyone feel like this when they get into a relationship? chances are the relationship is not gonna last forever, but you still dont wanna think about the end. until it really is over, then you look back and realize that you knew it'd happen eventually but it still hurts when it finally does.
I'm in the exact position right now. I dated a guy, and he said "we will ALWAYS be together, i love you more than anything in this world" then he turned around and got another girlfriend, and just said "oh by the way i have a girlfriend. Anyways, how are you?" I wanted to fucking rip his head off, i was sooo pissed. It was long distance, so i kinda understood. But how he handled it was completley childish and just messed up. I hated him for a very long time, but i'm starting to realize if your always mad at them ; they win. What they did will stay in your mind FOREVER, and they will take over your life. But if you just forgive and forget, you can move on, and just learn to say "fuck you, i'm done with you.".
I.LOVE.THIS.SONG. story of my life. not even kidding. "but i should of thought of that before we kissed.." genius. oh goodness.
I didn't know about 'Kite,' but through the whole music video I kept thinking it looked like something ripped off from an anime, pink braids and all.
Yeah this kinda situation always sucks!!!!! I think the lyrics mean that she knew what she was getting into but she still wanted to go for it and now that the consequences have fallen she is looking back on it and saying she knew it all along and she should have used her better judgement..... CAN WE SAY JOSH ALLEN!!
in a way it reminds me of my last relationship....
yeah my friend Amanda is in this situation right now, but she's not dating a player...just a dumb kid named Jake with red hair.
Story of my love life. There have been so many times that I wish I had exercised better judgment before getting into something....
Gwen wrote this song when she broke up with Gavin for about 6 months. She was really mad at him and this is kinda the whole feel of the "return of saturn" album. The lyrics explain themselves really so I don't really need to write a long complicated analysis, now do I?
sounds like a situation i am in now...i love this song