I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I will keep myself
I would find a way
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I will keep myself
I would find a way
Lyrics submitted by implode, edited by Mellow_Harsher, swagshag
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To me, this song is about regret. About making the wrong choices and trying to right them. At some point, the narrator made a choice that game him alot, but hurt someone he cared about. Realizing that the person he hurt is more important, he offers to give up his "empire of dirt". The end of the song (last 4 lines) clearly states that if the narrator could go back and make different choices, he would.
I disagree with the last part. For me he is saying that if he could start fresh he wouldn't, because he accepts his mistakes and wants to "find a way" to make them right.
@gotterdam I actually think that the last bit of the song is not so much regret, but acceptance, even self-loathing. He says that if he could start again, he would "Keep" himself. He would not change himself. Which makes it sound like he doesn't want to change his loathed ways. But then he hits you with, "I would find... a way." This, to me, says that he doesn't WANT to keep up his wayward ways, but the bad side of him will "find a way" to triumph over his goodness. This is more depressing than your interpretation, but I find it more likely and, frankly, more powerful.