"I Do Not Want This" as written by and Trent Reznor....
I'm losing ground
You know how this world can beat you down
I'm made of clay
I fear I'm the only one who thinks this way
I'm always falling down the same hill
Bamboo puncturing this skin
And nothing comes bleeding out of me just like a waterfall I'm
Drowning in
Two feet below the surface I can still make out your wavy face
And if I could just reach you maybe I could leave this place
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
Don't you tell me how I feel
Don't you tell me how I feel
Don't you tell me how I feel
You don't know just how I feel
I stay inside my bed
I have lived so many lives all in my head
Don't tell me that you care
There really isn't anything, is there?
You would know, wouldn't you?
You extend your hand to those who suffer
To those who know what it really feels like
To those who've had a taste
Like that means something
And oh so sick I am
And maybe I don't have a choice
And maybe that is all I have
And maybe this is a cry for help
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
Don't you tell me how I feel
Don't you tell me how I feel
Don't you tell me how I feel
You don't know just how I feel
I want to know everything
I want to be everywhere
I want to fuck everyone in the world
I want to do something that matters
I want to know everything
I want to be everywhere
I want to fuck everyone in the world
I want to do something that matters


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"I Do Not Want This" as written by Trent Reznor

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  • +2
    General CommentI belive that this song is made of of four separate entities/states of mind, that are battling each other. Once one takes over, the other one wishes to drown it out and replace it, continuously.


    I am losing ground...
    I stay inside my bed...
    -these are the states of mind which portray the current state of his being, his deep depression and fathlessness in all things and all people and their intentions.

    I am always falling down...
    You would know, wouldn't you...
    -in this state of mind, he is being completely truthfull with himself, realizing he needs help, but is hesitant to hold on to this thought.

    I do not want this...
    Don't you tell me how I feel...
    -here he flat out refuses he needs to be helped or that there is anyone who could sufficently offer him adequate help.

    In the last few "I want..." lines, The narrator strives or dreams about a better life, one where he can SEE, KNOW and DO all he wishes to acomplish succesfully, and to ease his curiosity. He does not want to remain a mess and a failure.

    In the line " I want to fuck everyone", he doesn't refer to a sexual act, but uses sex as a metaphor for getting to know all the people on a deep pesonal level, hoping that maybe, there are a few others like him...
    The 4th line of the song "I fear I am the only one who feels this way" forshadows this.
    illusorycorelationon December 29, 2004   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThis song is about depression, how it can take you over, and how sick they are of people telling them how they feel, like the other people understand, or even care. The person in this song is so overwhelmed they aren't sure they can last anymore...
    ssjprincessburaon May 04, 2003   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI find this song to be a cry for help from the protagonist, and for once, it is a physical calling. Perhaps he has called his ex who left him in Piggy, or an old friend, or he is trying to get therapy. He describes how he feels, what Mr. Self-Destruct/the Ruiner/the voice has turned him into. Unfortunately enough, the combination of his own selfishness and Mr. Self-Destruct's influences cause him to lash out when the person on the receiving end of his pleas tries to help (don't tell me that you care; don't you tell me how I feel). Thus, he only succeeds in going further down the spiral, as he only isolates himself more by driving off other people, which highly benefits the Ruiner. Finally, in the last part of the song, he expresses his discontent for his life at an all-time high. His mental stability has gone to hell, his life is boring, he does not want this, but he's only making himself sink faster.
    HammerFloydon September 25, 2011   Link
  • +1
    My Interpretation"I want to know everything, I want to be everywhere, I want to fuck everyone in the world, I want to do something that matters."

    These are the thoughts that circle and chase me all fucking day, the thoughts that suffocate and hound me all damn night. What could I be doing right now? What should I focus on? What's the next thing I should do? How should I do that? Can I do that? I like that person, that person, that person, how can I be the person they would like? Wait, am I even into them? What am I doing with my life? Why do I work here? Should I go to college? When is a good time to do that? What do I want to study? EVERYTHING! NOTHING! EVERYONE! NO ONE!

    I don't remember what it was like when my mind was *normal* and functional, when each thought wasn't the beginning of a motherfucking explosion of insanity. When I could plan or contemplate things without having a full-blown, rocking-back-and-forth meltdown.
    Aquarius121on February 07, 2014   Link
  • 0
    General CommentAt this point in the album, I think the 'char' is battling with either his drug addiction, and in doing so is loosing his love for the person who is trying to help him. as the end off this song dectates, the 'char' wants a life to live, and not wanting to be tied down as he feels like at that moment, hence the 'I want...' part.

    A personal top choice song, because I've had been through a low point, and this song perfectly describes my feelings... Even though these feelings were wrong...
    Cylipsoon July 13, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Commenti think its just bout someone hating themselves, and all the sympathy in the world isn't gonna help, and it just is exausting to try and fight of all the 'good doers' coz they just make u feel worse...
    Flickon August 04, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThe character Trent portrays in TDS is at a point where he's willing to ask for help, and he's close to letting someone else inside, but at the same time is defensive because he fears they won't accept him or give him the help he needs.
    LittleUrantiaGirlon July 03, 2003   Link
  • 0
    General Comment>> I'm always falling down this same hill
    bamboo puncturing this skin
    and nothing comes bleeding out of me
    just like a waterfall I'm drowning in
    two feet below the surface
    I can still make out your wavy face
    and if I could just reach you
    maybe I could leave this place <<

    that almost brings tears to my eyes everytime i hear that part of the song.
    it is written beautifully...
    i love it.
    xheartbreakerxon January 14, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General Commentbi-polar disorder
    Oceaniaon August 30, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI`ve felt like this for the last three months, i understand this song my way, It just fits me perfectly as a depression, as I seem unable to be perfect or important.
    Frauon January 18, 2006   Link

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