This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Talking to the mirror again, but it's not listening
Cleaning my dirty mind like a toilet, but it won't give in
Drinking spirits in the hopes that I will find myself one
All I can rectify is that the party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
I feel like falling asleep and never waking up
It's not that my glass is empty, but I need another cup
When all of the doors around me just shut one by one by one
I feel like falling asleep, but the party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Begun, begun, begun
Shaky, shaky steps in the middle of the day
A fire in my path and a cool decay
Of limbs and tooth under my skin
Oh, freedom, where do I begin?
I'm changing my inflection and how I say the words
Maybe it will sound like something they've never heard
Oh, death of the party
I picked up the chalice of malice
And drank 'til I was full, I drank 'til I was full
I was thirsty, but I drank 'til I was full
I drank 'til I, 'til I, 'til I was full
There's a fever in my bones that I know so well
I keep my head low, low, low to avoid the swell
But it'll be cold in hell, it'll be cold in hell
Before they put me in that chamber
So I'm cleaning up as fast as I can
I'm cleaning up as fast as I can
'Cause you can't unbreak what you break, you can't unfake the very fake
You cannot fuel without a tank
No, you can't unbreak what you break, what you break
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Cleaning my dirty mind like a toilet, but it won't give in
Drinking spirits in the hopes that I will find myself one
All I can rectify is that the party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
I feel like falling asleep and never waking up
It's not that my glass is empty, but I need another cup
When all of the doors around me just shut one by one by one
I feel like falling asleep, but the party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Begun, begun, begun
Shaky, shaky steps in the middle of the day
A fire in my path and a cool decay
Of limbs and tooth under my skin
Oh, freedom, where do I begin?
I'm changing my inflection and how I say the words
Maybe it will sound like something they've never heard
Oh, death of the party
I picked up the chalice of malice
And drank 'til I was full, I drank 'til I was full
I was thirsty, but I drank 'til I was full
I drank 'til I, 'til I, 'til I was full
There's a fever in my bones that I know so well
I keep my head low, low, low to avoid the swell
But it'll be cold in hell, it'll be cold in hell
Before they put me in that chamber
So I'm cleaning up as fast as I can
I'm cleaning up as fast as I can
'Cause you can't unbreak what you break, you can't unfake the very fake
You cannot fuel without a tank
No, you can't unbreak what you break, what you break
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
Party's just begun
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