This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Dancing with the devil on the 13th floor
Non stop knocking on heaven's door
Thinking faster flirting with disaster plastered
I'm your puppet master pushin' proper data
Watch the city steal your soul as the drugs take control
And the problems of the world put your life on hold
You should have known by now that it just don't stop
You like that rock hip-hop you make me grab my crotch
[Chorus]
I got a lollipop porn bitch
Dead on arrival
A hardcore sex bitch turned
Suicidal
All caught up now taking my chances playing my song
While the devil dances 'round me beggin' me to play along
Now over the years I've learned to love the pain
I'm what you call a ladykiller with the gift of game
Triple X true that you do dat dat
Let it ride bring it back over twenty four tracks
We're gonna rock the fuckin' block tonight
We're gonna rock that shit gonna make it right
Diggi, diggi damn right, we's dynamite
So we can do this or you can do what you like
I grab the mic and make it mine
I grab the mic and make it hype
So we can do this, or you can do what you like
[Chorus]
Riding on the 3rd rail, taking risks, life is risky
The 'E' stands for Epic and the 'S' stands for Shifty
So let the good times roll, there's no controlling us
Walking on water and kicking up dust
The boisterous, causing panic in the land of lust
The shell shock lollipop crazy down to make your body rock
Sugar I love the way your body talks
Now, whoever said that sex was overrated
Love leaves me devastated, life's so fuckin' complicated
Shifty say what, Epic's a beat slut
And I got so many rhymes I can't keep my mouth shut
[Chorus]
Non stop knocking on heaven's door
Thinking faster flirting with disaster plastered
I'm your puppet master pushin' proper data
Watch the city steal your soul as the drugs take control
And the problems of the world put your life on hold
You should have known by now that it just don't stop
You like that rock hip-hop you make me grab my crotch
[Chorus]
I got a lollipop porn bitch
Dead on arrival
A hardcore sex bitch turned
Suicidal
All caught up now taking my chances playing my song
While the devil dances 'round me beggin' me to play along
Now over the years I've learned to love the pain
I'm what you call a ladykiller with the gift of game
Triple X true that you do dat dat
Let it ride bring it back over twenty four tracks
We're gonna rock the fuckin' block tonight
We're gonna rock that shit gonna make it right
Diggi, diggi damn right, we's dynamite
So we can do this or you can do what you like
I grab the mic and make it mine
I grab the mic and make it hype
So we can do this, or you can do what you like
[Chorus]
Riding on the 3rd rail, taking risks, life is risky
The 'E' stands for Epic and the 'S' stands for Shifty
So let the good times roll, there's no controlling us
Walking on water and kicking up dust
The boisterous, causing panic in the land of lust
The shell shock lollipop crazy down to make your body rock
Sugar I love the way your body talks
Now, whoever said that sex was overrated
Love leaves me devastated, life's so fuckin' complicated
Shifty say what, Epic's a beat slut
And I got so many rhymes I can't keep my mouth shut
[Chorus]
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Anuva sick tune by CXT!! I GOT A LOLIPOP PORN BITCH! Bring back crazytown!