"Even Deeper" as written by and Daniel Lohner Trent Reznor....
I woke up today
To find myself in the other place
With a trail of footprints
From where I ran away
It seems everything I've heard
Just might be true
And you know me
(well you think you do)
Sometimes, I have everything - yet I wish I felt something

Do you know how far this has gone?
Just how damaged have I become?
When I think I can overcome
It runs even deeper

And in a dream I'm a different me
With a perfect you
We fit perfectly
And for once in my life I feel complete
And I still want to ruin it
Afraid to look
As clear as day
This plan has long been underway

I hear them call
I cannot stay
The voice inviting me away

Do you know how far this has gone?
Just how damaged have I become?
When I think I can overcome
It runs even deeper
Everything that matters is gone
All the hands of hope have withdrawn
Could you try to help me hang on?
It runs...

I straight
I won't crack
On my way
And I can't turn back
I'm okay
I'm on track
On my way
And I can't turn back
I stayed
On this track
Gone too far
And I can't come back
I stayed
On this track
Lost my way
Can't come back


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"Even Deeper" as written by Trent Reznor Daniel Lohner

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  • +2
    General CommentThis is a sad song that communicates many things to me. But mostly, I feel as though he's saying the only time he feels good is when he's dreaming; fantasizing about his life being different, the way he wants it to be. And even then, he still wants to destroy it because he can't handle positive things in his life - he doesn't know how.
    DeathRockBoyon June 22, 2002   Link
  • +2
    General CommentI think this song is about him wanting to escape from his side that makes him hate himself and keep himself from love. To someplace where his fear of falling in love wouldn't make him just want to ruin it. He is always afraid he will ruin it if he feels like he truly has found love.
    starfireon October 29, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General CommentHumm...I dunno about that...But, sure...?

    I think it's just about him and his emotions...

    "I woke up today
    to find myself in the other place"

    (Meaning the place where he has been his whole life, alone, the...bad place?)

    "with a trail of my footprints
    from where I ran away "

    (The place he was "From where I ran away" is the good place, where the sun shines, if you will. He ran away, in fear of facing "good".)

    "it seems everything I've heard
    just might be true
    and you know me
    (well you think you do)"

    (Everyone telling me I'd run, may be true(Because I did, and do). You said I would, "and you know me". "(well you think you do)" You think you know me so well, and you don't even know who I am, or what I'm about.)

    "sometimes, I have everything-
    yet I wish I felt something"

    (Pretty much what it says. Sometimes, I have everything (material), yet I well nothing, inside (emotional).)

    "do you know how far this has gone?
    just how damaged have I become?"

    (Do you know how much pain I have experienced, gone through. Just how much do I have to go through, to let go, enjoy again.)

    "when I think I can overcome
    it runs even deeper "

    (When I think I can overcome, the pain. As soon as I start, it runs even deeper, the pain becomes more.)

    "and in a dream I'm a different me
    with a perfect you
    we fit perfectly
    and for once in my life I feel complete-
    and I still want to ruin it"

    (These lyrics are basicly the whole song (the meaning)And in a perfect dream, we fit perfectly. With a different me, and a perfect you. We are both complete, and fit together so well. Yet, I still want to ruin it, ruin the pleasure, ruin the joy, because I am afraid to see, and experence what is truely good.)

    "afraid to look
    as clear as day
    this plan has long been underway"

    (As above, afraid to "see the light", this pain has long been underway, the pain has been coming, for quite awhile.)

    Sigh, there's the bell, got to go to my next class (Yay!)

    Beside giving away the WHOLE song is no fun, think a bit...later.
    XBlascidXon May 23, 2002   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI think Trent, has a place to get away from things, bad things in his life, troubles and hassles, this being 'the other place' and he ran away from his life. however this place has become 'contaminated' with this thing that runs 'even deeper' and now he dreams of a new 'different' place to get to and get away from things, the end describes his journey there.
    Closeron June 03, 2002   Link
  • +1
    General CommentTo me this song is about depression. It's the feeling of sliding back 2 feet for every foot you climb out of a pit. There are 2 lines that really hit home for me:

    "sometimes, I have everything yet I wish I felt something"

    "In a dream I'm a different me with a perfect you, we fit perfectly. For once in my life I feel complete-
    and I still want to ruin it."

    This, to me, is depression. No matter what you have, what you accomplish, who you are, it's never enough. There is a need that is unfulfilled, a need that will always run even deeper. Living with something like that makes you self-destructive. You work so hard to try to feel good that in the process you destroy the things that matter in your life, the things that should make you happy, slipping another 2 feet down the hole.
    gobblyon January 29, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI agree with you gobbly but more in the sense of what entity994 is talking about. This song is talking about depression because that's what I could relate to at the time.

    I woke up today
    to find myself in the other place
    with a trail of my footprints
    from where I ran away

    -When depression hits it's sudden but only because the signs are so subtle you don't realize it until it's too late. You've been running from it but one day you realize you can't escape.

    it seems everything I've heard
    just might be true
    and you know me
    (well you think you do)

    -Others notice certain changes and ask if you are allright and you just say yes because you want to be allright. They seem to know something is up but they will never know how far it goes.

    sometimes, I have everything-
    yet I wish I felt something

    -No matter how well your life is going you can be depressed and all you want is to feel good, hell anything but depressed even.

    do you know how far this has gone?
    just how damaged have I become?

    -Even if you talk to people about it you can never quite say the right words to depict how bad you truly feel.

    when I think I can overcome
    it runs even deeper

    -You start to try to find cures for it. You think you're making headway because you certainly can't get any worse but then you realize you can and you have. You just keep sinking because there is no bottom.

    and in a dream I'm a different me
    with a perfect you
    we fit perfectly
    and for once in my life I feel complete-
    and I still want to ruin it

    -You dream of being happy but you know deep down even if you could get these things you think would make you happy the depression would take over and make you sabotage everything because it always wins.

    afraid to look
    as clear as day
    this plan has long been underway

    -Above I stated that one day you realize you're depressed. When you do and come to grips with it you can look back and see all the signs you missed that if you had just seen you could have prevented it from becoming so deep.

    I hear them call
    I cannot stay
    the voice inviting me away

    -The dreams of being happy always end and you are always brought back to the depression.

    do you know how far this has gone?
    just how damaged have I become?
    when I think I can overcome
    it runs even deeper

    -What I said earlier.

    everything that matters is gone
    all the hands of hope have withdrawn
    could you try to help me hang on?
    it runs...

    -Eventually you get to the point where it is better to die then to continue living. You have nothing, not even yourself. You desperately look for someone else to save you because even though you don't want to live it keeps getting worse. It never ends.

    Sorry, I know it's long. But that's what that song meant to me when I first heard it. I connected with it and took it that way because I needed to.
    sublimeliveon March 01, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThis song is about depression and contemplating suicide.
    lifeizkewlon December 30, 2011   Link
  • 0
    General CommentTHEORY 1: MAYBE its about his life as a "rockstar". How he views it, how it happened, why he did it. And about how people think he has "everything"... but not the one thing he truely wants.

    I woke up today
    to find myself in the other place
    with a trail of my footprints
    from where I ran away
    -{he suddenly woke up and realized what his life. And all the things he ran away from through it)

    "it seems everything I've heard
    just might be true
    and you know me
    well you think you do"
    - (i think hes referring to the fans that go on about how they know exactly how he feels ect. And they know everything about him cause they've read books and magizines)

    sometimes, I have everything-
    yet I wish I felt something
    -(he has money and stardom and all most people could want... yet its not what brings him happiness and satisfaction)


    and in a dream I'm a different me
    with a perfect you
    -(dreaming of a different life)
    we fit perfectly
    and for once in my life I feel complete-
    and I still want to ruin it
    -(he knows what he wants but he cant bring himself to do it)
    afraid to look
    as clear as day
    this plan has long been underway

    FragileAtaraxiaon April 19, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI think that the fragile whole CD has interlocking meaning I mean my favorite songs on the CD are the Fragile, Even Deeper, and Some what damaged. I belive thaey all have inter locking means. In this song the girl in the fragil has brokin loose and lose it and because he no longer has her to keep him sain. He falls back into his old world.
    babydeadgirl730on July 07, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentFrom my own experiences, I think that just when you've think you've understood the roots of your problems, you realize that whatever you are feeling runs even deeper. Something deep inside is causing it. Things have built up over time and situations become more complicated. It's about be empty inside, yet so full.
    doombunnehon August 31, 2002   Link

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