I envy your demise
I hope it's all you dreamed it would be
One bullet in this gun
Not sure if it's for you or me

I envy your demise
With all the guilt you hid away
All the lies that I had spun
And all the times I wished you'd stay

Now, all that I'll ever suffer
All that I'll ever be
All that I'll ever ruin
You can always cover me with makeup

I envy your demise
Seven hundred and fifty degrees
When it burned it smelled like you
But it scorched and looked a lot like me

I envy your demise
You never said that you'd try
When I had to lose control
Lose control to really cry

Now, all that I'll ever abuse
All that I'll ever see
All that I'll ever ruin
You can always cover it with makeup

All that I'll ever limit
All that I'll ever try
All that I'll ever trust
You can always cover it with

All that I'll ever abuse
All that I'll ever see
All that I'll ever ruin
You can always cover it with makeup


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Poor Impulse Control song meanings
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    General Commentreminds me of so many things...the inability to resist cutting, hating urself and sum1 else so much u don't know who's gonna get killed first. and also that however much pain u feel, u can always hide it away.
    ladyboygrrlon May 11, 2002   Link
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    General Commenti think this is my favourite jack off jill <3
    er..one of them, since i adore every song they've put out. but i never get sick of this song. i think it's about hating someone, but you hate yourself for hating them as well. *shrug* i think it's also about wanting to hide who you are to stop the pain[you can always cover me with makeup] it's about a lot of things really.. hurting yourself, self image, wanting revenge, etc etc..i think. although one can never be sure. xo.
    her heartacheon June 08, 2002   Link
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    General Commentthis song is something i defintely can relate to. thank god for jack off jill and their empowering lyrics...mmm...
    DestroyedAngelon June 13, 2002   Link
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    General Commenti think the line '1 bullet in this gun, not sure if it's for u or me' is my favourite line in this song. i also think 'u can always cover it with makeup' has two meanings- that you can always cover your scars with make-up, and that you can always hide away your pain.
    ladyboygrrlon July 01, 2002   Link
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    General CommentI agree, lady... the 1 bullet in the gun is the part that I always relate to. Okay, so the whole song kicks ass...
    BlasphemousRuinon July 02, 2002   Link
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    General CommentYep this is definantly one of my best joj songs too, i *heart* this song.
    I just love the way Jessicka sings with such feeling and passion.
    And ladyboygrrl - I agree with you totally, your spot on ;)
    MsAnnThr0pYon July 12, 2002   Link
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    General Commenti think its about a girl thinking that shes not good for n e thing and she feels like all that she'll ever do is mess up something.but theres always a way to fix it.
    Freakonaleash053on July 28, 2002   Link
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    General Commenti think its sorta like reaching a point in a relationship where you cant take any more and you know one of u is gonna be destroyed, but you dont know who.i love the first line. i agree with the things about make up too, that line is sort of my... i dunno, motto i guess. i live by that line.
    CrimsonPainon August 31, 2002   Link
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    General Comment"i envy your demise, i hope it's all you dreamed it would be"

    that makes me think of certain people i know who think its cool/fun to be fucked up, and who crave the attention that taking drugs (for example) gives them. all they want is their own demise.
    ladyboygrrlon March 21, 2003   Link
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    General CommentI envy your demise
    I hope it's all you dreamed it would be

    This song reminds me of most teenagers and how they have, well, poor impulse control. The line "you can always cover it with makeup" reminds me of how teenage girls slather themselves with makeup to make themselves pretty; to hide themselves, it seems.
    freakishfaeon April 17, 2003   Link

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