I can't exist anymore
Till I destroy you
I'm hating everyone
Don't know what to do

Ingesting flesh and bone
Makes me a cannibal
Or am I criminal
I feel so horrible

Horrible
Horrible
Horrible

Sucking on colorforms
Becoming see through
Still hating everyone
As I digest you

I do not feel wrong
Am I incurable
Or am I criminal
I'm so damn horrible

Horrible
Horrible
Horrible

I will ingest you
So to protect you
Then they can't take you
Away from me

I will ingest you
So I can protect you
Then they can't take you
Away from me

Fade into yesterday
Searching for my youth
Try to detest it all
Searching for the truth

Self-centered devil spawn
This makes me durable
Or am I criminal
I feel so horrible

Horrible
Horrible
Horrible

Horrible
Horrible
Horrible


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  • +1
    General CommentI thought it meant the same as everyone else wrote above, but I think it could also be about eating disorders.

    When she (lets call her A) eats, she feels disgusting, fat and horrible, because a person (let's call that person B) made her think she was overweight when she wasn't. She's so frustrated and she thinks everyone sees her in bad eyes, and she doesn't eat anything anymore except for human flesh (either literally or figuratively).
    Ex. "I can't exist anymore, till I destroy you-" A's going to starve herself as long as B is alive.
    "Am I incurable"- Anorexics never fully cure.
    Ex. "I will ingest you, so to protect you, then they can't take you away from me"- B isn't one of the things she isn't allowed to eat on a diet.
    "Becoming see-through-" Either (or both) she is emanciated, or people are discovering her secret.
    roachbubblegumon June 01, 2009   Link
  • +1
    My InterpretationDid I really not comment on this?! Okay, so. To me it's very much about an eating disorder, though it could be just 'cause of my own history, but if you break the lyrics apart a little...

    "I can't exist anymore
    Till I destroy you"

    Anorexia takes over, so YOU don't exist, just some little shell, skin stretched over bone, and until you destroy anorexia completely, you won't be whole. Or even, from the anorexics point of view, she won't be whole until the fat is gone.

    "Ingesting flesh and bone
    Makes me a cannibal"

    When you don't eat, you go into starvation mode, you're destroying your own system.

    "Sucking on colorforms
    Becoming see through"

    See through. Skinny. Enough said.

    "I do not feel wrong
    Am I incurable"

    You feel that starving is RIGHT you ARE too fat. You are never going to be cured, it's a trap.

    "Then they can't take you
    Away from me"

    The doctors want to cure you. But anorexia is a PART of you.

    She comes back to it, and then goes or am I criminal, fucking horrible. It's like, I know I need to starve, wait this is dumb, back and forth. To me, the meaning fits...
    draconyxon August 13, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General Commentobviusly this song is about how shes feeling horrible.wow i'm good.
    Freakonaleash053on July 30, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Commentomg thats so what i was thinking!! heh, kinda like a vengeance song, sort of about all this anger inside and the only way to get rid of it and be normal again is to take revenge
    CrimsonPainon August 31, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Commentthis song is great... and yeah! this song makes me hungry.
    My x MachetEon September 08, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI LOVE this song.
    Graciaon September 08, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI think you guys are skipping the symbolism....i can relate this very easily to how everyone at my school hates me and thinks that im horrible...when im not. But then it gets perpetuated because they think so...
    TurnDowntheSunon March 06, 2003   Link
  • 0
    General CommentSome the lyrics posted are wrong
    KillMeFasteron May 10, 2004   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThe song says it all. Jessicka feels horrible about the person she has become. It could also be seen as a personal point of view. If you dislike who you have become, etc.
    KillMeFasteron May 18, 2004   Link
  • 0
    General CommentIt could be that she feels so horrible because people/someone have/has made her feel that way, like a self fulfilling prophecy. They have said so many things that coz she has heard them so many times, she actually believes them.
    Green_Dreamon October 02, 2005   Link

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