This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Was happiness a fad
Or was it in the lost and found again behind the issues?
It might not be so bad
We're all addicted to our tragedy
I guess it's what it had to be
With nothing on my back
It's still enough to bring me down
My mind's about to crack
'Cause what I thought could not be found
Matter of in fact
It's harder still when you're around
With nothing on my back
I can't help but drown
I might as well belong to both of you
And the mess you always seem to drag me through
That night, forever always haunting me
But I guess it is what it's supposed to be
But spare your thoughts of sympathy
With nothing on my back
It's still enough to bring me down
My mind's about to crack
'Cause what I thought could not be found
Matter of in fact
It's harder still when you're around
With nothing on my back
I can't help but drown
With nothing on my back
It's still enough to bring me down
My mind's about to crack
'Cause what I thought could not be found
With nothing on my back
It's still enough to bring me down
My mind's about to crack
'Cause what I thought could not be found
With nothing on my back
It's still enough to bring me down
My mind's about to crack
'Cause what I thought could not be found
With nothing on my back
It's still enough to bring me down
My mind's about to crack
'Cause what I thought could not be found
With nothing on my back
It's still enough to bring me down
My mind's about to crack
'Cause what I thought could not be found
Matter of in fact
It's harder still when you're around
With nothing on my back
I can't help but drown
Or was it in the lost and found again behind the issues?
It might not be so bad
We're all addicted to our tragedy
I guess it's what it had to be
With nothing on my back
It's still enough to bring me down
My mind's about to crack
'Cause what I thought could not be found
Matter of in fact
It's harder still when you're around
With nothing on my back
I can't help but drown
I might as well belong to both of you
And the mess you always seem to drag me through
That night, forever always haunting me
But I guess it is what it's supposed to be
But spare your thoughts of sympathy
With nothing on my back
It's still enough to bring me down
My mind's about to crack
'Cause what I thought could not be found
Matter of in fact
It's harder still when you're around
With nothing on my back
I can't help but drown
With nothing on my back
It's still enough to bring me down
My mind's about to crack
'Cause what I thought could not be found
With nothing on my back
It's still enough to bring me down
My mind's about to crack
'Cause what I thought could not be found
With nothing on my back
It's still enough to bring me down
My mind's about to crack
'Cause what I thought could not be found
With nothing on my back
It's still enough to bring me down
My mind's about to crack
'Cause what I thought could not be found
With nothing on my back
It's still enough to bring me down
My mind's about to crack
'Cause what I thought could not be found
Matter of in fact
It's harder still when you're around
With nothing on my back
I can't help but drown
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