This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I burn and melt and stick and fade
Your temporary arms invade
One of many last warnings
Cannot wipe the conscience clean
The strain wears in you whore me in again
Cannot connect the smirking world
The poison flower comes uncurled
If I believe I'm dreaming
And if they find you lost again
What will you tell them then
Collapsing in again you found what makes it sore
You triggered off the feelings that you felt before
I come crawling up again I need to eat I need a friend
Some one with me
No better feeling than escape avoid the feeling so you're
All the guilt pulls away if only forever
Replace the name replace the fear
I can't come out but I want you here
I'm laughing now and then it floods
But not out loud
I feel you up and feel you down
I need your space I need it now
Another circumstance has gone and shut you down
Another fear awakened in the fault you found
Your temporary arms invade
One of many last warnings
Cannot wipe the conscience clean
The strain wears in you whore me in again
Cannot connect the smirking world
The poison flower comes uncurled
If I believe I'm dreaming
And if they find you lost again
What will you tell them then
Collapsing in again you found what makes it sore
You triggered off the feelings that you felt before
I come crawling up again I need to eat I need a friend
Some one with me
No better feeling than escape avoid the feeling so you're
All the guilt pulls away if only forever
Replace the name replace the fear
I can't come out but I want you here
I'm laughing now and then it floods
But not out loud
I feel you up and feel you down
I need your space I need it now
Another circumstance has gone and shut you down
Another fear awakened in the fault you found
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