This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Well, I've got two lovers and I ain't ashamed
Two lovers, and I love them both the same
Let me tell you 'bout my first lover
He's sweet and kind and he's mine, all mine
He treats me good like a lover should
And makes me love him
I really really love him
I love him so (love him so)
And I'll do everything I can to let him know
But, I've got two lovers and I ain't ashamed
Two lovers, and I love them both the same
Let me tell you 'bout my other lover
Well you know, he treats me bad, makes me sad
Makes me cry, but still I can't deny
That I love him
I really really love him
I love him so (love him so)
And I'll do everything I can to let him know
Darling, well
Don't you know that I can tell
Whenever I look at you
That you think that I'm untrue
'Cause I say that I love two
But I really really do
'Cause you're a split personality (personality)
And in reality (reality)
Both of them are you baby (they both are you)
Well, I've got two lovers and I ain't ashamed
Two lovers, and I love them both the same
Two lovers, and I ain't ashamed
Two lovers, and I love them both the same
Let me tell you 'bout my first lover
He's sweet and kind and he's mine, all mine
He treats me good like a lover should
And makes me love him
I really really love him
I love him so (love him so)
And I'll do everything I can to let him know
But, I've got two lovers and I ain't ashamed
Two lovers, and I love them both the same
Let me tell you 'bout my other lover
Well you know, he treats me bad, makes me sad
Makes me cry, but still I can't deny
That I love him
I really really love him
I love him so (love him so)
And I'll do everything I can to let him know
Darling, well
Don't you know that I can tell
Whenever I look at you
That you think that I'm untrue
'Cause I say that I love two
But I really really do
'Cause you're a split personality (personality)
And in reality (reality)
Both of them are you baby (they both are you)
Well, I've got two lovers and I ain't ashamed
Two lovers, and I love them both the same
Two lovers, and I ain't ashamed
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