This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
(Didn't your Mama tell you how to behave,girl?
Didn't your Daddy tell you not to wear that little thing?)
Been told you never get something for nothing
My stepfather Dickie say I just might get hit
If I don't give
The girls all shisper 'hind my back
They try to break me whith cruel attacks
The boys they want only one thing
And so I give it, don't complain
Daddy's gone, Mama lost her job
Our house ain't a home no more
Still my faith's unshaken in God
I feel so lonely for hope and company
I don't take much and I give everything for free
(So, don't you want me?)
The girls all whisper'hind by back
My baby brother's smoking crack
The boys they want only one thing
And so I give it, don't complain
Daddy's gone, Mama lost her job
Our house ain't a home no more
Still my faith's unshaken in god
I dream I get a record deal
I'll buy a way out of here
Or maybe a new Lexus jeep
Or just a friend (Am I dreamin'? Am I dreamin'?)
There's Mr. roberts,Juan and Paul
All waiting for me down the hall
But then tomorrow they don't call
Still a moment's better than none at all
Daddy's gone (My name is La Tonya)
Mama lost her job (I am a sophomore)
Our house ain't a home no more (I'll be sixteen in August)
Since Mama broke her soul (I like to sing in chorus)
Daddy's gone (My name is La Tonya)
Mama lost her job (I am a sophomore)
Our house ain't a home no more (I'll be sixteen in August)
Still my faith's unshaken
Lord won't you please save me?
Is this the new slavery?
Here on the ghetto pavement?
But I believe in you baby
Yes, my faith's unshaken
In God
Didn't your Daddy tell you not to wear that little thing?)
Been told you never get something for nothing
My stepfather Dickie say I just might get hit
If I don't give
The girls all shisper 'hind my back
They try to break me whith cruel attacks
The boys they want only one thing
And so I give it, don't complain
Daddy's gone, Mama lost her job
Our house ain't a home no more
Still my faith's unshaken in God
I feel so lonely for hope and company
I don't take much and I give everything for free
(So, don't you want me?)
The girls all whisper'hind by back
My baby brother's smoking crack
The boys they want only one thing
And so I give it, don't complain
Daddy's gone, Mama lost her job
Our house ain't a home no more
Still my faith's unshaken in god
I dream I get a record deal
I'll buy a way out of here
Or maybe a new Lexus jeep
Or just a friend (Am I dreamin'? Am I dreamin'?)
There's Mr. roberts,Juan and Paul
All waiting for me down the hall
But then tomorrow they don't call
Still a moment's better than none at all
Daddy's gone (My name is La Tonya)
Mama lost her job (I am a sophomore)
Our house ain't a home no more (I'll be sixteen in August)
Since Mama broke her soul (I like to sing in chorus)
Daddy's gone (My name is La Tonya)
Mama lost her job (I am a sophomore)
Our house ain't a home no more (I'll be sixteen in August)
Still my faith's unshaken
Lord won't you please save me?
Is this the new slavery?
Here on the ghetto pavement?
But I believe in you baby
Yes, my faith's unshaken
In God
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