I don't believe I went too far
I said I was willing
she said she knew what my books did not
I thought she knew what's up

Past the mission
behind the prison tower
past the mission
I once knew a hot girl
past the mission
they're closing every hour
past the mission
I smell the roses

She said they all think they know him well
she knew him better
everyone wanted something from him
I did too but I shut my mouth
he just gave me a smile

Hey they found a body
not sure it was his
still they're using his name
and she gave him shelter
and somewhere I know she knows
somewhere I know she knows
somethings only she knows

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    General Commentthis song... well, they say this is Tori singing from May Magdalene's perspective. The "he" in this song would be Jesus, "She said they all think they know him well. she knew him better"
    "and she gave him shelter
    and somewhere I know she knows
    somewhere I know she knows
    somethings only she knows"
    Only Mary, whom they said Jesus had an intimate relationship with (it's history, so don't get ticked off, Fundamentalists), would know him better than a bunch of sandaled guys following him around. Besides, Tori seems to have a fascination with this feminist Mary Magdalene figure in more than one song. See also Talula and Mary.
    j3ebruleson June 01, 2004   Link
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    General Commentor maybe i was wrong and it is trent.
    i know maynard sings something live with tori...
    misschainsawxxxon February 06, 2008   Link
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    General CommentThis is from an interview about hers and Trent Reznors relationship and such. When asked why she chose him for this song this was her answer.
    ``The choice for (`Past The Mission') had to be somebody that represented rage and anger because this is all about a girl trying so hard to work through being a victim,'' she said. ``I felt like for a guy to be supporting her, it had to be a guy that could rage, because then it would really mean something if he could be tender. Trent is--well, you can't be in all that much rage and pain unless you have a very big heart.''
    From just that I am going to have to say its a case of abuse sexual or not. I don't think she would write about something that specific. But the reference to the guy there I'm thinking was the guy who did abuse the character in this story. So prob from a relationship, maybe they were friends before this happened. It's a common reality.
    aquila2883on August 22, 2008   Link
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    General CommentMy ex boyfriend used to play this song in his band with him singing the chorous. SOOO amazing. Fall completely oin love eith him all over when I hear this song.
    Adiaon August 06, 2002   Link
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    General CommentI think this is one of the only Tori songs I honestly don't understand. Anyone have any quotes or their own input?
    ic_assasainon September 14, 2002   Link
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    General CommentI was never actually sure about the true meaning of the song, but Trent Reznor's backup singing is great!
    SisterSoleilon May 01, 2004   Link
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    General Commentwow never knew the meaning... now i do thanks

    i before always knew due to "past the mission" something to do with evangelism and christianity...
    Maverick_Matthewon February 04, 2005   Link
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    General CommentAn interesting point: some pagan groups believe that Jesus and Mary Magdalene represent the balance of male and female, yin-yang, ect. There are also Gospels that were not included in the Bible, due to conspiracy within the Church, the which I will not delve into because my controversialtopic!senses are tingling.

    But, yeah... from another point of view, it could be Tori talking about trying to achieve a spiritual connection with the sacred feminine. Also, "roses" are commonly linked as a symbol for Mary Magdalene. ("I smell the roses...") I suppose "past the mission" (mission being where people are being taught christianity) and "she said she knew what my books did not, i thought she knew what's up" could mean that she was going outside the teachings of the Book to go into the story of Mary and Jesus that is so widely disputed, hearing the voice of Mary telling her "some things only she knows."

    Then again, I just finished reading The Da Vinci Code. So don't mind me.
    scrawledepitaphon April 26, 2005   Link
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    General CommentFrom what I could gather, there are 3 viewpoints in this song:

    1) I = anyone really but I prefer to think it is an apostle or someone who is a scholar of the time period. Actually though, I think Tori meant this role for us or herself. Thjink about it. It's her way of placing us within the conflict.

    2) She = Mary Magdelene

    3) He = Jesus

    Thanks to previous posters for explaining the Mary angle. The last lines seem to talk about the finding of Jesus' body and the doubt if it is his body. With this line of reasoning, I think Tori is saying that the apostles just continued using HIS name as if he were still alive AND with them in body and philosophy but that Mary took HIM in and really knows where he is. It sets up a doubt on the institutional aspect of Christianity. There is a difference between the faith of Christianity and the institution of Christianity. A definite conflict?

    daedoloson December 10, 2005   Link
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    General CommentBoth Tori's parents were missionaries at one point I believe, thus the idea of a mission.

    an organization of missionaries in a foreign land sent to carry on religious work

    The video for this was shot on location in Spain.
    marquiceriseon January 17, 2006   Link

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