Excuse me, but can I be you for a while?
My dog won't bite if you sit real still
I got the anti-Christ in the kitchen yellin' at me again
Yeah, I can hear that

Been saved again by the garbage truck
I got something to say you know but nothing comes
Yes I know what you think of me you never shut up
Yeah I can hear that

But what if I'm a mermaid?
In these jeans of his with her name still on it
Hey, but I don't care
'Cause sometimes
I said sometimes I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent all these years

So you found a girl who thinks really deep thoughts
What's so amazing about really deep thoughts?
Boy, you best pray that I bleed real soon
How's that thought for you?

My scream got lost in a paper cup
You think there's a heaven where
Some screams have gone?
I got 25 bucks and a cracker
Do you think it's enough to get us there?

'Cause what if I'm a mermaid?
In these jeans of his with her name still on it
Hey, but I don't care
'Cause sometimes
I said sometimes I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent all these...

Years go by
Will I still be waiting
For somebody else to understand?
Years go by
If I'm stripped of my beauty
And the orange clouds raining in my head
Years go by
Will I choke on my tears
Till finally there is nothing left?
One more casualty
You know we're too easy, easy, easy

Well, I love the way we communicate
Your eyes focus on my funny lip shape
Let's hear what you think of me now
But baby don't look up
The sky is falling

Your mother shows up in a nasty dress
And it's your turn now to stand where I stand
Everybody lookin' at you
Here, take hold of my hand
Yeah, I can hear them

But what if I'm a mermaid?
In these jeans of yours with her name still on it
Hey, but I don't care
'Cause sometimes
I said sometimes I hear my voice
I hear my voice
I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent all these years

I've been here
Silent all these years
Silent all these
Silent all these years...


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  • +3
    General Commenti completely think this song has a different meaning than what you are all saying! (not that you might not be right, but i just think there's more to it) .. i dont know if it has to do with her being pregnant or not, but i think it's about how she doesn't feel like the guy is listening to anything she says and she hates it....
    "Cause sometimes I said sometimes I hear my voice and it's been years/ silent all these years " .. that seems definitely like she's trying to stand up to him and it's really hard because she's been with him for a long time and let him walk all over her
    and "choke on my tears" is like she can't get them (tears, feelings, whatever) out even though she's really upset about this guy .. maybe he's cheating on her (then the jeans line would make sense)
    "Years go by will I still be waiting/ For somebody else to understand" sounds like she doesnt want to break up with him, or even speak up, because she's scared she won't find another guy
    "I got something to say you know but NOTHING comes
    Yes I know what you think of me you never shut up
    Yeah I can hear that " sounds like, yet again, she can't make herself stand up to him and it's all about what he thinks, just like in the part where it says "Well I love the way we communicate
    Your eyes focus on my funny lip shape
    Let's hear what you think of me now but baby don't look up
    The sky is falling "
    ... anyone have any feedback?
    supergrrlaclon September 25, 2002   Link
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    General CommentI saw Tori Amos on 20/20 a few years back. She explained this song was written to give voice to her inner rage at being raped. "Cause sometimes I said sometimes I hear my voice,I hear my voice, I hear my voice, And it's been years silent all these years". That is saying she was silent about it but not anymore. "Years go by will I still be waiting, For somebody else to understand" Well plenty of women hear and understand!!!
    fluffyfluff1on March 10, 2003   Link
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    General Commentthe only part of this song i think i really get is "boy you best pray that i bleed real soon" - i'm pretty sure she's telling him that she might be pregnant.
    jaxgrrlon May 14, 2002   Link
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    General CommentFor me, this song is really about those who can't think for themselves, those who always obey their parents, those who are sheltered and those who want something more.

    At first things previously sinful and taboo seem just that but eventually they open up with your mind and there's a whole new world waiting.

    I really identify with this song a lot because it reminds me of how I was when I was afraid of all that was different from me and afraid of myself. It's not necessary to live in a constricting universe with a dirty gag stuck in your mouth, you can really discover something else.

    And it seems Tori has broken free by the end of the song as she sings "silent all these years" near the end and instead of returning to the repetitive three-note arpeggio she has matured into a simple yet elegant string part.

    Here's the lyrics that mean the most to me.

    "Yes I know what you think of me, you never shut up."
    You can't be too dependent on what other people think of you because they will always be trying to press you into a mold.

    "You best pray that I bleed real soon, how's that thought for you?"
    Not exactly positive how to say what this means but it is very beautiful.

    "My scream got lost in a paper cup, do you think there's a heaven where some screams have gone? I've got 25 bucks and a cracker do you think it's enough to get us there?"
    The screams represent to me the good things we cannot have in our cage. They are lost in something cheap and worthless but we can go retrieve them.

    "Years go by, will I still be waiting for somebody else to understand."
    Once again, we can't depend on other people to save us.

    "Let's hear what you think of me now but baby don't look up, the sky is falling."
    Finally, we've learned to stand up to the authority and rest on a foundation different from the ones we've always lived on. We may not be approved of, but the other world is collapsing.

    I love this song, it's one of my favorites by Tori Amos.
    TheSunderedOneon March 10, 2003   Link
  • +1
    General CommentNo one has mentioned this part yet:

    Your MOTHER shows up in a nasty dress
    It's your turn now to stand where I stand
    Everybody lookin' at you here take hold of my hand

    I think this is speaking about the way that her own abused and damaged soul still can't resist but to reach out a hand to her abuser...when he is the one to feel ridiculed and small. Very insightful and compassionate.
    driggsyon June 05, 2004   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThis song is definitely about unwanted pregnancy. In an interview tori said that "Boy you best pray that I bleed real soon" was a direct reference to the possibility of unwanted pregnancy. She said that everyone is writing songs, but she writes songs about the real things, the things no one else wants to write about. The harsh truths of the world.
    jeans_of_hison December 04, 2004   Link
  • +1
    General Commentdoes anyone else think that Tori might sometimes just get really FUCKED up and writes? I'm not sure that she always has some profound meaning to every song. i think a lot of them are simple stories with clear messages but she just beefs them up with insane lyrics..... just something ive always wondered about her
    mazshieldson April 01, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI love this song. I think she's talking about someone she has a love/hate relationship with. And she's kind of stuck in it, she can't find her voice, she doesn't have enough confidence to walk away and she's wants to pretend she's still ok with it because she has fears that no one will love her again.
    And she's kind of saying, that it's had to let go of another person, she's kind of hanging on to hope that it will work.
    lauralau85on April 19, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentIt's hard to be in a position where someone is treating you as if you're below them, constantly belittling you and making you feel as if you're not important. It's even harder when you love that person and have no strength to leave them, even if they make you feel shitty. I think this song epitomizes the journey of being put down by someone you love, whether a lover of a family member or a friend, but all the while you know, deep inside, that you mean more than they allow you to believe, and that you do have a voice...it's just hidden.
    ChelloBelloon August 13, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General Commentmy interpretation?

    Well, I love the way we communicate
    Your eyes focus on my funny lip shape
    Let's hear what you think of me now...

    I think the guys shes with beats her up.
    "I love the way we communicate" is sharp sarcasm as they communicate through yelling and hitting.

    Your eyes focus on my funny lip shape i think is a fat lip, he's hit her and its swollen and looks out of shape... Lets hear what you think of me NOW.
    Always telling her just what he thinks of her and it's like...bring it on. What are you going to throw at me this time?

    His mother turns up and its like their keeping up with appearences. 'Your turn now to stand where I stand' like he's frightened of his mother and she gives him her hand because she understands and, in a way, sympathises in how hes feeling in being made to feel inadequate and small.

    And one more casualty... i think its, one more victim of domestic abuse and/or rape and shes saying it happens too easily. Quiet women who are to frightened to stand up for themselves are taken advantage of too easily too often by bullying controlling partners who i think in this case - hes been bullied all his life by someone, perhaps his parents, and now he's taking his rage out on her - its not fair that he was bullied as a child, but its not fair that hes grown up to treat women the way he does. Their BOTH casualties in a way...i think thats what shes trying to say...? could also be the baby some posts have mentioned, if she WAS pregnant the baby she lost/aborted would be a casualty of the situation too.

    Tori Amos is amazing. She certainly gets everyone thinking. If you got some of these lyrics in english/sociology classes at colleges that would soon get some brains working!!
    therightspriteon June 07, 2008   Link

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