This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Must have been the devil who changed my mind
Must have been the wind blowing not me crying
Half the joy of leaving was the space I left behind
Now I'm back, angel headed holloweyed
Placed myself at the eye of the storm
Just didn't see the signpost to scorn
The blue sky wrinkled through my tears
Then darkness grounded all my fears
I gave him my sugar, he switched it for salt
Should have seen him coming that's always my fault
Rocks for my pillow and sand for my bed
For better or worse I left him for dead
But two rivers to each other run
Words that shook me like the kick of a gun
Had something in my heart ain't got no name
Turned out he felt the same
Ain't it lonesome, ain't it sad
I was the only happiness he ever had
By Indian River the vows were said
In a red devil's dress I was wed
Bit*h's baby round lady
Came to me in a dream
Then lightning struck and thunder roared
And nothing was as it seemed
A two-headed doctor walked on the water
And buried a lemon outside my door
He turned and laughed, threw up his hands
When I asked him what it was for
He sang 'ships in the ocean rocks in the sea,
Blond-headed woman made a fool outta me'
Then everything went crazy
My shoes filled with blood
The water rose the wind did howl
The river looked ready to flood
I left my man asleep to drown
And ran without looking back around
Ring the bells of mercy
Send the sinnerman home
The keys to the kingdom are lost and gone
And I'm left to die alone
All these girls grown old now
All that long hair in the grave
Realize what's done is done
It's far too late to be saved
Must have been the wind blowing not me crying
Half the joy of leaving was the space I left behind
Now I'm back, angel headed holloweyed
Placed myself at the eye of the storm
Just didn't see the signpost to scorn
The blue sky wrinkled through my tears
Then darkness grounded all my fears
I gave him my sugar, he switched it for salt
Should have seen him coming that's always my fault
Rocks for my pillow and sand for my bed
For better or worse I left him for dead
But two rivers to each other run
Words that shook me like the kick of a gun
Had something in my heart ain't got no name
Turned out he felt the same
Ain't it lonesome, ain't it sad
I was the only happiness he ever had
By Indian River the vows were said
In a red devil's dress I was wed
Bit*h's baby round lady
Came to me in a dream
Then lightning struck and thunder roared
And nothing was as it seemed
A two-headed doctor walked on the water
And buried a lemon outside my door
He turned and laughed, threw up his hands
When I asked him what it was for
He sang 'ships in the ocean rocks in the sea,
Blond-headed woman made a fool outta me'
Then everything went crazy
My shoes filled with blood
The water rose the wind did howl
The river looked ready to flood
I left my man asleep to drown
And ran without looking back around
Ring the bells of mercy
Send the sinnerman home
The keys to the kingdom are lost and gone
And I'm left to die alone
All these girls grown old now
All that long hair in the grave
Realize what's done is done
It's far too late to be saved
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This is one of my favorite songs. https://fnfgo.io
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heh, I'm not gonna try and interpret that. Some kinda relationship? It's playing in season 6 of buffy the vampire slayer when willows getting a "magic" fix. So possible drugs references? I dunno.
I love this album sooo much! But it is so abstract that I think it is best to interpretate it personally, not from the bands perspective. There is deffinately some kind of relationship status with this song. The narrator seems to be in a position where men seem to have let her down alot. So possibly a really chaotic relationship. But it's so confusing i cant really say anything more.
THIS SONG MEANS ALOT TO ME. YOU ARE RIGHT, IT IS ABOUT A RELATIONSHIP +& YES, IT IS BEST TO INTERPRETATE IT PERSONALLY =))
I love how surreal the lyrics of this song are and I agree that it's best to interpret it personally.
One interesting detail, the bones of a black cat when prepared in a certain way are said to be able to be used to resurrect a dead lover.
Its about a one night stand, they used eachother and this lady is basically saying they've sinned and lost their souls so to speak. My take. In the beginning they meet, they're attracted to eachother, she wakes up before him afterwards feeling guilty.