This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Pretending to remember our last December, and everything it was.
Hoping to fix the broken.
Stood by the fireplace. The flames lit up my face.
And everything I said (walking on glass)
I practiced in my head .
And all that I could do (walking on glass)
Was recite my lines to you.
Pretending to recall the way it was last fall, for lack of better days.
I think this time of year, you see everything too clear,
But still can't understand a thing.
And everything I said (walking on glass)
I practiced in my head.
And all that I could do (walking on glass)
Was recite my lines to you.
I can't forget a word you said, and everything it meant.
Instead of you I fear myself.
Guess all that I can do, is take back everything that I'd given to you.
Pretending to remember our last December, and everything it was.
Hoping to fix the broken.
Stood by the fireplace. The flames lit up my face.
And everything I said (walking on glass)
I practiced in my head.
And all that I could do (walking on glass)
Was recite my lines to you.
I can't forget a word you said, and everything it meant.
Instead of you I fear myself. It's all that I can do.
Cause you're uncomfortable with me.
Yeah you're uncomfortable with me. (Just answer the question.)
Why can't I just understand, what's inside you?
Is it just guts and black stuff? I'll find out soon.
Cause anything that you do or say
Couldn't compare to the pain that I felt...
The day that we said that we'd go our separate ways.
Hoping to fix the broken.
Stood by the fireplace. The flames lit up my face.
And everything I said (walking on glass)
I practiced in my head .
And all that I could do (walking on glass)
Was recite my lines to you.
Pretending to recall the way it was last fall, for lack of better days.
I think this time of year, you see everything too clear,
But still can't understand a thing.
And everything I said (walking on glass)
I practiced in my head.
And all that I could do (walking on glass)
Was recite my lines to you.
I can't forget a word you said, and everything it meant.
Instead of you I fear myself.
Guess all that I can do, is take back everything that I'd given to you.
Pretending to remember our last December, and everything it was.
Hoping to fix the broken.
Stood by the fireplace. The flames lit up my face.
And everything I said (walking on glass)
I practiced in my head.
And all that I could do (walking on glass)
Was recite my lines to you.
I can't forget a word you said, and everything it meant.
Instead of you I fear myself. It's all that I can do.
Cause you're uncomfortable with me.
Yeah you're uncomfortable with me. (Just answer the question.)
Why can't I just understand, what's inside you?
Is it just guts and black stuff? I'll find out soon.
Cause anything that you do or say
Couldn't compare to the pain that I felt...
The day that we said that we'd go our separate ways.
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