This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I cannot pretend
That I remember how to dream
And no one told me
That when I became a man
The monsters would still be under the bed
And the strangers would still seem so strange
And the darkness would still incite fear
Inside me
And in knowing this
And retrieving this
Give my heart away
Give my heart away
To every single
Kiss like lemonade
It brings me to my knees
Looking down on this place
The closest thing to a christ in this world
Is the fact that I've lived long enough to regret
All the time that I've spent simply wishing away
All the things I will live to regret
There is no light at the end of this tunnel
There is no grasping a waning salvation
There is no never as no love lasts forever
In spite of what you may have heard
In spite of what you may have been taught:
Weened off of mother's breast
Forced into our still-soft mouths
Are constant lies
Are constant lies
Dismember my idealism
Before my eyes
Recognize the truth behind
The blind leading the blind
Trying to feel out my way through this mayhem
This crippled reflection of what was once my life
Bleeding-hand image of what I'm becoming
Can this disaster
Oh, can this disaster be felt?
I cannot pretend
That I remember how to dream
And no one told me
That when I became a man
The monsters would still be under the bed
And the strangers would still seem so strange
And the darkness would still incite fear
Inside me
And in knowing this
And retrieving this
Give my heart away
Give my heart away
To every single
Kiss like lemonade
It brings me to my knees
Looking down on this place
The closest thing to a christ in this world
Is the fact that I've lived long enough to regret
All the time that I've spent simply wishing away
All the things I will live to regret
There is no light at the end of this tunnel
There is no grasping a waning salvation
There is no never as no love lasts forever
In spite of what you may have heard
In spite of what you may have been taught:
Weened off of mother's breast
Forced into our still-soft mouths
Are constant lies
Are constant lies
Dismember my idealism
Before my eyes
Recognize the truth behind
The blind leading the blind
Trying to feel out my way through this mayhem
This crippled reflection of what was once my life
Bleeding-hand image of what I'm becoming
Can this disaster
Oh, can this disaster be felt?
I cannot pretend
Lyrics submitted by Afina
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