"Scratch" as written by and Kendall Payne....
it's a big girl world now
full of big girl things
and every day I wish I was small
I've been counting on nothing
but he keeps giving me his word
and I am tired of hearing myself speak
do you get weary? do you ever get weak?
how do you dream when you can't fall asleep?

I've been wondering what you're thinking
and if you like my dress tonight
would you still say you love me
under this ordinary moonlight
I'm so afraid of what you'll say

I'd like to know if you'd be open to starting over from scratch
I'd like to know if you'd be open to giving me a second chance

I used to think I was special
and only I have proved me wrong
I thought I could change the world with a song
but I have ended up in India all alone
with no map to guide me home
the strangest place I think I've ever been
and all this time, I thought that we were friends
my stubborn will is learning to bend

I'd like to know if you'd be open to starting over from scratch
I'd like to know if you'd be open to giving me a second chance

I'd like to know if you'd be open to starting over from scratch
I'd like to know if you'd be open to giving me a second chance

it's a big girl world now
full of big girl things
and every day I wish I was small


Lyrics submitted by catherineks

Scratch song meanings
Add your thoughts

17 Comments

sort form View by:
  • +1
    General Commentthis song is definitely one of the most beautiful songs i have ever heard. i just downloaded it after i heard it on grey's anatomy last night. the music is just so sad and haunting. makes me cry everytime!
    laureno1919on January 30, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI too also heard this song from Grey's Anatomy. This song has that perfect tone that clearly has the possibility of interacting with my crying reflexes. Sad tone. But VERY beautiful.
    chwymnkyon February 08, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI think the reference to India might just be a reference to somewhere where you can get lost easily without a map to guide u home literally..

    What's starting over from scratch? I didn't quite get what's starting over from scratch initially too, until she sang the line "and all this time, I thought that we were friends/my stubborn will is learning to bend".. I think that it means she realises that she's falling for a friend, that all this time, she thought they were friends but now she truly realises that she might be falling for him and hence is asking if things between them can start from scratch again - as lovers this time.

    That's just my thoughts though.. might be totally wrong lol.
    spinningfreeon October 05, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General CommentIf anyone is interested... Kendall explains the basis of the lyrics on this page.
    kendallpayne.com/…
    Letter from Jowi - July 31, 2006
    koukla243on February 26, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General Comment*this is just my interpretation, of how I relate to this song. But I basically I believe this song is her reminiscing on her personal history: childhood innocence, growing up, relationships, the past in general*

    it's a big girl world now
    full of big girl things
    and every day I wish I was small
    (Growing up, now having responsibilities or a history and realizing how much it sucks, wishing you could go back to the days where everything was simple as a child)

    I've been counting on nothing
    but he keeps giving me his word
    and I am tired of hearing myself speak
    (this line relates to her ex saying how much he "loves" her, she knows it isn't true no matter how much he swears it is, even though she wishes it were true or is starting to believe it were true. She keeps acknowledging and repeating back to him, 'you don't actually love me'. She's doesn't believe his insubstantial word/promises and she is tired of repeating herself that it isn't true)

    do you get weary? do you ever get weak?
    how do you dream when you can't fall asleep?
    (she's basically asking him, 'don't you get sick and tired of lying to me? We both know it isn't true'. How does he have time to sleep/dream when he is up late fabricating lies to her.)

    I've been wondering what you're thinking
    and if you like my dress tonight
    would you still say you love me
    under this ordinary moonlight
    I'm so afraid of what you'll say
    (She is basically asking for the honest truth or his opinion, what he is truly thinking but is so afraid of what he'll say(the truth). He keeps telling her she is this rare beauty or his one true love and she secretly wants to believe that too. In all honesty she is a normal girl and that's she's just been too available, whats been around for him to prey on.)

    I'd like to know if you'd be open to starting over from scratch
    I'd like to know if you'd be open to giving me a second chance
    (She'd like to know if all this stuff he's been telling her is how he truly feels (starting from scratch) or if he is just lonely and wants her companionship that he can build upon their previous relationship/history).

    I used to think I was special
    and only I have proved me wrong
    (She used to believe she was special, reflecting back to childhood when her parents and/or her ex telling her she's special. but life experience have taught her otherwise, she's ordinary and has proven that she is not special)

    I thought I could change the world with a song
    but I have ended up in India all alone
    with no map to guide me home
    the strangest place I think I've ever been
    (India is a metaphor for escaping from life and truth in some type of way, she went to "India" but has zero guidance there, she has no idea what she is doing. Naively she thought goodwill was enough to change the world or her life. When she realized that it wasn't so, she had to run away from real life. Whether by drugs, alcohol, sex, or any other type of self medication)

    and all this time, I thought that we were friends
    my stubborn will is learning to bend
    (I believe her ex-lover started out as her best friend, which is why she feels so betrayed, and she is learning to reconstruct her life around losing not only her best friend but lover as well, because she is stubborn and won't give up on life)

    I'd like to know if you'd be open to starting over from scratch
    I'd like to know if you'd be open to giving me a second chance
    I'd like to know if you'd be open to starting over from scratch
    I'd like to know if you'd be open to giving me a second chance
    ( again she'd like to know the truth and start over without all their history/baggage)

    it's a big girl world now
    full of big girl things
    and every day I wish I was small
    (But she realizes how unrealistic that is, referring back to the beginning of the song where she wishes she were a child again with simpler days/thought processes, when that was a possible option)
    murabon August 31, 2014   Link
  • 0
    General Commenti was wondering if anyone knew what the reference to india means? i don't think she is specifically talking about the country, because it is followed by "and all this time i thought that we were friends" as part of the same thought.

    anyway, amazing song...one of those i feel like i wrote myself cuz it echoes my heart. i could listen to it over and over again...
    angelgrlprodon February 24, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThe way the instruments are played fit this song just beautifully. My personal favorite part of the song is "how do you dream when you can't fall asleep" it's just a wonderful song. I love how when it gets to the chorus it starts to rise and then falls to just the guitar being played and her voice high and clear.
    Kimik_Ohon May 06, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentOMG - this song is like a gag-reflex for my tear ducts. I can't hear this song without immediately without starting to cry. It's the equivalent of cutting onions. One of the most poignant, beautifully written songs about love lost I think I have ever heard. The desire to start all over with someone you deeply love and has made an indelible imprint on your heart....absolutely brilliant.
    ctanaon June 01, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThe tune is so haunting, and she sings it so beautiful! :-) I absolutely love it. I love to sing it along... but I also wondered what the reference to India meant... 'The strangest place, I think I've ever been...' What's starting over from 'scratch'?
    Ashley765on September 29, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI LOVE THIS SONG!
    :( :(
    crow_hearton November 07, 2006   Link

Add your thoughts

Log in now to tell us what you think this song means.

Don’t have an account? Create an account with SongMeanings to post comments, submit lyrics, and more. It’s super easy, we promise!

Back to top
explain