Sometimes I wonder torn between my heart,
Torn between my heart and my mind.
And I feel my body to see if I'm in,
If I'm in tune with what I find.
But I don't know how to feel.
And I don't know what to feel,
Anymore.

Anymore.

Wanna be the decision-cision
Kill free things. I feel a difference inside.
I'm a boy who's so sick of searching.
Maybe there's a heaven nearby.
So should I let these thoughts out,
Or should I let you in?
Its so easy to be alone.
Look within.
Will I find home?

I just don't know
How to feel.

Feel
How to feel
How to feel
Feel

Feeling so afraid like I am stuck here,
Like I am stuck here and can't move.
I like to watch the sunsets lighting the warm colors.
The warmth it blinds the truth.
But I don't know how to feel, don't.
And I don't know what to feel anymore.

I keep on hurting myself.
Tearing off the skin, I let it burn at the touch.
What I've lived, what I've learned
Though it may be the truth, truth it hurts.
When we have something inside that no motherfucker will touch.
No I won't think like you.
If I did what am I trying to prove?

I just don't know...
I just don't know how to feel.
I just don't know what to feel anymore.


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A Letter From Prison song meanings
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    General CommentBoy hits car are fucking awesome, very unknown in australia, but im trying to spread the word. THis song is just another example of the passion and pain shown by boy hits car, i hear that their live shows are just intense, id love them to come down here. I think this song is perhaps not about "prison" in terms of gaol, more so i think its more of a metaphorical prison, that perhaps he is stuck inside his own mind. The way he keeps assesing himself "i feel afraid", ""the truth hurts", "sick of searching" it seems he is trapped inside his own mind, "Torn between my heart and my mind" trying to make descisions, but his over-reactive mind tears at him, analysing every single detail of the descision he needs to make. He is a prisoner in his own mind
    Timmon May 10, 2003   Link
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    General Commentbrilliant
    Ocean Soulon January 30, 2006   Link
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    General CommentMy interpretation of this amazing, beautiful, and great song. A Letter From Prision has always been my favorite song by Boy Hits Car. It has a very complex and confusing meaning, but I think I got it mostly right.

    "Sometimes I wonder torn between my heart,
    Torn between my heart and my mind."
    -The old conflict in a single person, go with what your heart feels, or what your mind feels, and he has no idea at this moment.

    "And I feel my body to see if I'm in,
    If I'm in tune with what I find."
    -Just seeing if he's right with his decision(s).

    "But I don't know how to feel.
    And I don't know what to feel,
    Anymore."
    -He's so confused with all these stuff going on he just doesn't know what to do. As he says.

    "Wanna be the decision-cision
    Kill free things. I feel a difference inside."
    -He wants to be the right decision, and he feels something coming over him... I guess?

    "I'm a boy who's so sick of searching.
    Maybe there's a heaven nearby."
    -So used to looking for a way into heaven, thinking about it, he thinks, "maybe earth is heaven?"

    "So should I let these thoughts out,
    Or should I let you in?"
    -Should he burst all his emotions he's feeling, or should he just let the person into his life?

    "Its so easy to be alone.
    Look within.
    Will I find home?"
    -Being alone is easy, being with people is hard. So he's trying to escape, but it's hard.

    "Feeling so afraid like I am stuck here,
    Like I am stuck here and can't move."
    -He feels now like he cant espace this world of "evil" or whatever and he cant even move (obvious lyrics me thinks)

    "I like to watch the sunsets lighting the warm colors.
    The warmth it blinds the truth."
    -That feeling of being calm and at ease with everything is all just hidding the truth that everything is bad and terribal out there.

    "I keep on hurting myself.
    Tearing off the skin, I let it burn at the touch."
    -He keeps letting emotions get the better of him, over and over and over again.

    "What I've lived, what I've learned
    Though it may be the truth, truth it hurts."
    -The reality of everything is that everything hurts him in the end no matter what.

    "When we have something inside that no motherfucker will touch.
    No I won't think like you.
    If I did what am I trying to prove?"
    -The feelings he holds inside is practically all thats important and no one can take them away from him. And people assume they feel like him but he knows they don't.
    AdamWTFon April 11, 2010   Link

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