This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
It's the last days
Jocks think pussIes are ash trays
and artsy-farts have more baggage than Samsonite
those ancient Hamptonites
They're always like, "I can't tonight"
and men who are too beautiful
are too dutiful with theip cuticles
Plus it's like talking to a carpeted cubicle
I was eating food when a dude pseudo-suitable said,
"My rap talk's
the back drop
from laptop
to blacktop
You certainly appear to be mightily stacked op
My iconoclastic rap schtick
gets my jimmy waxed like Chapstick
I think LL Cool J and Canibus are both fantastic
So-called experts
can't see how the text works
so they come through the textures
of italicized excerpts"
Believe me, it sucks
acting impressed
Plus the whole time he rhymed
he stared at my breasts
At best
he was neither ugly nor dumb
I guessed
I'd rearrange the boredom
and make it into bedroom
I said, "Let's go Max like Headroom"
We brought the ruckus like Red Grooms
on the couch where we made out
with my hand on his paunch
He invited me to march
in the Million Sperm Launch
The fun talk stopped
when we heard the front door unlock
His dad made such a Grand entrance, dude,
you'd think we'd need sunblock
At long last he walked past
and let out a calm blast of bombast
but before he could set down he briefcase
I said, "You're a quief-face
Go back to Boston"
When I want some, I get some
I'll wade through the flotsam and jetsam
'til I've met some smart hotties and caught 'em
My parents named me Autumn
but now I'm fricking awesome
Next I took the Express to 86th and Lex
flexed my Metrocard back in my wallet and
walked to the Metropolitan
The Great Hall
had hundreds of boys
straight out of "Eightball"
Wait, Paul
Barman was posted at his station
He said, "For students there's a $5 suggosted donation"
Our eyes met
It's nice to be hypnotized
by a man you don't despise yet
He had a type of flow
and I can't quite label it
All I know
it made me want to take off my cableknit
sweater, oh he better be hetero
I hope they don't catch us in
the Lila Acheson
Wallace Wing when Paulus brings
the mattress in--rudely
He Backlashed my booty
like I was Susan Faludi
over the Grace Rainey Rogers Room rostrum
When I want some, I get some
I'll wade through the flotsam and jetsam
'til I've met some hot smarties and caught 'em
My parents named me Autumn
but now I'm frigging awesome
If I want some, I get some
When I'm lost in the flotsam and jetsam
I'll draw some
L'acoste alligators chasing an opossum
I'm fricking awesome
Jocks think pussIes are ash trays
and artsy-farts have more baggage than Samsonite
those ancient Hamptonites
They're always like, "I can't tonight"
and men who are too beautiful
are too dutiful with theip cuticles
Plus it's like talking to a carpeted cubicle
I was eating food when a dude pseudo-suitable said,
"My rap talk's
the back drop
from laptop
to blacktop
You certainly appear to be mightily stacked op
My iconoclastic rap schtick
gets my jimmy waxed like Chapstick
I think LL Cool J and Canibus are both fantastic
So-called experts
can't see how the text works
so they come through the textures
of italicized excerpts"
Believe me, it sucks
acting impressed
Plus the whole time he rhymed
he stared at my breasts
At best
he was neither ugly nor dumb
I guessed
I'd rearrange the boredom
and make it into bedroom
I said, "Let's go Max like Headroom"
We brought the ruckus like Red Grooms
on the couch where we made out
with my hand on his paunch
He invited me to march
in the Million Sperm Launch
The fun talk stopped
when we heard the front door unlock
His dad made such a Grand entrance, dude,
you'd think we'd need sunblock
At long last he walked past
and let out a calm blast of bombast
but before he could set down he briefcase
I said, "You're a quief-face
Go back to Boston"
When I want some, I get some
I'll wade through the flotsam and jetsam
'til I've met some smart hotties and caught 'em
My parents named me Autumn
but now I'm fricking awesome
Next I took the Express to 86th and Lex
flexed my Metrocard back in my wallet and
walked to the Metropolitan
The Great Hall
had hundreds of boys
straight out of "Eightball"
Wait, Paul
Barman was posted at his station
He said, "For students there's a $5 suggosted donation"
Our eyes met
It's nice to be hypnotized
by a man you don't despise yet
He had a type of flow
and I can't quite label it
All I know
it made me want to take off my cableknit
sweater, oh he better be hetero
I hope they don't catch us in
the Lila Acheson
Wallace Wing when Paulus brings
the mattress in--rudely
He Backlashed my booty
like I was Susan Faludi
over the Grace Rainey Rogers Room rostrum
When I want some, I get some
I'll wade through the flotsam and jetsam
'til I've met some hot smarties and caught 'em
My parents named me Autumn
but now I'm frigging awesome
If I want some, I get some
When I'm lost in the flotsam and jetsam
I'll draw some
L'acoste alligators chasing an opossum
I'm fricking awesome
Lyrics submitted by warped1_02
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i cant believe nobody has commented on this. Paul Barman is freakin' awsome!! i saw him do this song life, i got his autograph, talked to him, hes a great guy. this song is about a stuck up bussiness type girl who is concerned with all the wrong things. oh yeah, her name is autumn, AND SHE'S FREAKIN AWSOME!