this scalpel makes a map across my back. carve a short cut to your suitcase lips. there's no saving us tonight. our pulse will flutter like a dial tone. as you touch my hand for one last time, the car engine hums us to sleep. the lies. your subtle teeth. tonight is the rest of our lives. a carbon monoxide lullaby. evacuate. abandon this breath. pull myself apart. just to feel something real. i close my eyes i turn my back for one last time. i hold my breath i fall alseep inside your arms. your eyes reflect my regrets. all the feelings you cant afford and the ones i cant control have collided. now i'm a mess. i've tried my best to hide it. now it's obvious. i wear it in these wounds that never heal. there's no saving us tonight.


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    General Commentits kinda unbelievable that no one has commented on this song, its so beautiful, but keeps its hard edge. love it.
    hatchetandannieon June 12, 2003   Link
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    General Commentdo you know if the bled is at all affiliated with hopesfall?
    cearammon June 10, 2004   Link
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    General Commentone interpretation i got from this song is that his lover died in her sleep and he doenst know how to deal with it well.

    another is that two people are commiting suicide in a car by carbon monoxide poisoning becuase life is too hard
    cearammon June 10, 2004   Link
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    General Commentsorry um for that shit meaning i came up wiht. i screwed it up and didnt htink about it for long enough..so here you all:

    1. catharsis-A technique used to relieve tension and anxiety by bringing repressed feelings and fears to consciousness

    2. cyanide-Any of various salts or esters of hydrogen cyanide containing a CN group, especially the extremely poisonous compounds potassium cyanide and sodium cyanide.(found in rat poison)

    Well since the title is "my cyanide catharsis", and given the definitions above and the lyrics, i have to say that it is about the fact that he is in pain, and it is extremely painful for him to realize what has happened. he is really depressed and feels he will never get out. for awhile he could hide it, but now everyone knows. his ex is the source of his pain, and when he looks into her pictures, he realizes that he never should have entered this relationship as said in, " your eyes, reflect my regrets".

    It seems to me that he hurts himself physically to feel "something real".

    "I turn my back for one last time" shows that he is killing himself and when 'i fall asleep inside your arms' is when he sees that she has takn him over

    then again, i could be totally wrong.

    more people need to comment on ths stuff
    cearammon June 16, 2004   Link
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    General Commenti agree now that i think of it... before i thought i knew, but this makes more sence! but i'll tell you what i thought before. i thought that it was about a guy and girl in love right, but their love was forbidden. and so they wanted to die by putting them selves to sleep with the poisonous gas. he looked into her eyes and they reflected his regrets because he thought "if only i never met you, if i never had fallen in love, my life wouldnt be ending" but thats what i thought because i was going though so it kinda manipulated my opinion.
    wings_ablazeon June 21, 2004   Link
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    General CommentI've been looking for this song for ages!
    I've had it on a mixed CD of stuff I'd downloaded and because I forgot to write what was on it i didn't know but I just listen over and over and yay it's the bled.
    ^_^
    ToCoolToBeXcoreon January 30, 2005   Link
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    General CommentTo me this song is about figureing out repressed emotions or memories and getting past them.

    "I close my eyes I turn my back for one last time"
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    He may be talking about something traumatic that has happend in the past.

    "All the feelings you cant afford and the ones I cant control have collided. Now i'm a mess. I've tried my best to hide it."

    The surfacing of emotions/memories you couldnt deal with. You can try to pretend like nothing is wrong but one day it will get to you.
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    I agree with "cearamm" somewhat on his interpertation of this song. I can see how this could apply to a old girlfriend "your eyes reflect my regrets..." regrets of what he could have done better maybe.

    I dont know, this is just how the song applys to me. I think the song is open to interpretation, Post Yours.
    Adam!!on February 07, 2005   Link
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    General Comment100% with cearamm
    pinkfloyd_atreyuon March 28, 2005   Link
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    General CommentWhat can i say, it's my favorite song, after listening to it 100's of times, i have taken not much notice to what the lyrics mean. Now looking at them, it seems like parts from the song suggests they are taking off somewhere together. Poisonous compounds obviosuly stop them from doing so or reaching their destination together.

    I think im pretty close with that statement. either way, this song will always be a favorite of mine, i aslo think it would be great if they did a remake of this song, but acoustic.
    MyCyanideCatharsison June 05, 2005   Link
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    General CommentThis song is so amazing... one of my favouritesss.
    forever_hauntedon August 10, 2006   Link

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