This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Thought I was asleep
Lost to dreams
I was dying in a big machine
Didn't think the voice that called me
Could be real.
Thought I woke up
Lost my faith
I was staring at the face of rage
Didn't think I'd see the demon in "His" heart
Thought I saw blood
Turn to wine
A vision from the angel wars
Didn't think I'd find the savior in the dark
Thought I saw a light
Tear the storm
Showing me the way to God
Didn't know that Heaven died and went to Hell
Blessed is dead Heaven
Blessed are shadows and pain
Blessed is dead Heaven
Blessed is death in "His" name
Thought I saw rain
Black and cold
Falling on a child's grave
Thought I saw an angel laugh and piss on it
Thought I saw a dance
Strange and cruel
Swaying to the screams of men
Thought I saw the Lord's disciples laugh at that
Thought I saw love
Sacrificed
Mary under three wise men
Thought I saw the Virgin look at me and cry
Thought I saw a cross
And Jesus dead
Burning in the midnight sky
Thought I saw God dancing in the flames
Glory is dead Heaven
Glory is shadows and pain
Glory is dead Heaven
Glory is death in "His" name
"Do you confess?"
"Cleanse your sin"
"Do you believe in the word of God?"
Welcome to dead Heaven
Welcome to shadows and pain
Welcome to dead Heaven
Welcome to death in "His" name
Lost to dreams
I was dying in a big machine
Didn't think the voice that called me
Could be real.
Thought I woke up
Lost my faith
I was staring at the face of rage
Didn't think I'd see the demon in "His" heart
Thought I saw blood
Turn to wine
A vision from the angel wars
Didn't think I'd find the savior in the dark
Thought I saw a light
Tear the storm
Showing me the way to God
Didn't know that Heaven died and went to Hell
Blessed is dead Heaven
Blessed are shadows and pain
Blessed is dead Heaven
Blessed is death in "His" name
Thought I saw rain
Black and cold
Falling on a child's grave
Thought I saw an angel laugh and piss on it
Thought I saw a dance
Strange and cruel
Swaying to the screams of men
Thought I saw the Lord's disciples laugh at that
Thought I saw love
Sacrificed
Mary under three wise men
Thought I saw the Virgin look at me and cry
Thought I saw a cross
And Jesus dead
Burning in the midnight sky
Thought I saw God dancing in the flames
Glory is dead Heaven
Glory is shadows and pain
Glory is dead Heaven
Glory is death in "His" name
"Do you confess?"
"Cleanse your sin"
"Do you believe in the word of God?"
Welcome to dead Heaven
Welcome to shadows and pain
Welcome to dead Heaven
Welcome to death in "His" name
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