Look at me now.
Got no religion.
Look at me now.
I'm so vacant.
Look at me now.
I was a virgin.
Look at me now.
Grew up to be a whore.
And I want it.
I believe it.

I'm a million different things
and not one you know.

Hey! And our mommies are lost now.
Hey! Daddy's someone else.
Hey! And we love the abuse because it make us feel like we are needed.
Now, but I know...
I wanna disappear.

Disappear.
I wanna disappear, baby.
Disappear.

Wanna die young
and sell my soul.
Use up all your drugs
and make me come.
Yesterday, man,
I was a Nihilist.
Now today I'm
just too fuckin' bored.
And I want it.
I believe it.
And I want it.

By the time I'm old enough, I won't
know anything at all.

Hey! And our mommies are lost now.
Hey! Daddy's someone else.
Hey! And we love the abuse because it makes us feel like we are needed.
Now, but I know...
I wanna disappear.

Disappear.
I wanna disappear, baby.
Disappear.

(Now, ch-- Now, children, it's time for recess. Please roll up your sleeves.)

Hey! And our mommies are lost now.
Hey! Daddy's someone else.
Hey! And we love the abuse because it makes us feel like we are needed.
Now, but I know...
I wanna disappear.


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    General CommentI think it's about someone who is very bored with their life and uses their life's drama for entertainment

    Look at me now.
    Got no religion.
    Look at me now.
    I'm so vacant.
    Look at me now.
    I was a virgin.
    Look at me now.
    Grew up to be a whore.
    And I want it.
    I believe it.


    Hey! And we love the abuse because it makes us feel like we are needed.


    And it eventually catches up to them

    "Now, but I know
    I want to disappear"
    YourEuphoriaon January 26, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General Commentthe first verse he's saying. "LOOK. look what i've become. got no religion, i was a virgin, grew up to be a whore." he used to have religion and be a little virginal kid. but then he opened his eyes, and became the opposite of what he was. and then "Iwant it. i believe it." saying this is what he wants for himself. being who he is, makes him happy.
    Then chorus.
    I'm a million different things
    and not one you know.
    -that's pretty self explainatory.

    Hey! And our mommies are lost now.
    Hey! Daddy's someone else.
    Hey! And we love the abuse because it make us feel like we are needed.
    Now, but I know...
    I wanna disappear
    -i think, this means, he has changed and seen a different side to our world. and now wants to disappear from it. Not by suicide.
    since the album is a concept album about the media, "we love the abuse" the media gives us "because it makes us feel like are needed." "but I know.. i want to disappear." get it?

    the second verse says wanna die young, sell my soul, use up all your drugs, make me come/cum. either the media pleasuring us or something like that. i don't quite get that part. but when he says "yesterday i was a nihilist, now today i'm just to fucking bored." I think he's talking about people today who have become so boring. everyone's bored these days. Nihilism is almost an anarchic belief. but "now today, we're just too fucking bored" to stand up for what we believe. we just sort of sit there and watch tv..
    maybe this verse is about teenagers? and the effect the media has on us. selling us death, drugs, and sex.

    "By the time i'm old enough, i won't know anything at all."
    I have no idea what this could mean.. I've been listening to this song since i was 14 and i've never been able to figure this line out. (however, with the recent decline in some of mansons music, i think that's what he means. By the time he's old, he'll have lost his music making skills or SOMETHING.) i have no idea. if someone could help me out, that'd be helpful
    mrsupers7aron September 09, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General Commentwhy hasn't anyone commented on this song?? i think it explains itself. and i can completely relate. but i have one question, why are they rolling up their sleeves? to cut their wrists or to get hit with a ruler?
    kill.me.fasteron August 10, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Comment"roll up your sleeves..." for drugs...well, media...because the whole album was a concept that we're all addicted to the media...
    rockstar001on September 12, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Commenti think that the song is about when u get tired of everything and you dont want to put up with all of the bullshit that goes on like people bullying you or your parents telling you that you are worthless and you just want to go away and never comeback.i feel like that all of the time.that is why manson is my idol because his songs represent everything that i feel on a daily basis,he is one of the very few bands whose songs i can totally relate to,as a matter of fact the only other bands that i can say that about is korn and staind,i can also relate to some of flaw's songs.
    iloveashleystoneon April 04, 2003   Link
  • 0
    General CommentGreat song,it just has that rocking riff!
    Razormasticatoron April 14, 2004   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI LOOOOOOVE this song. I want to dissapear...Yeah...
    precioussson February 04, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General Commenti think it sounds like it's about sex abuse...
    Mechanical_on March 05, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThis song is about wanting to escape life and just getting away from all the pressure that world puts on you as a teenager and sometimes even as an adult.
    X_Morbid_Vampire_Xon April 12, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThis song describes how I feel right now...
    tourniquet63on April 10, 2008   Link

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