| Sia – Chandelier Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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I think many who have struggled with destructive coping mechanisms such as drugs, alcohol, sex, etc might be with me in what I believe Chandelier means. It's about turning towards destructive outlets to deal, whether it's to forget about what's going on, to chase the high, or just to feel something, anything, that let's us know we're alive. Yet there's a frenzy when you're circling the rabbit hole, and sometimes the people around associate us with the "fun" facade they see, an attraction to the energy that's masking what is really happening inside. Even inside, there's something pushing us to keep doing it, though our mind and soul are saying, "Stop, when will you learn?" Sia talks about the devastating feeling of guilt as everything is happening, but the rush of it, the high as we're flying through the night - it dries our tears and we keep going until we're lost in the moment - like tomorrow doesn't even exist - like we won't have to deal with anything or any consequences, because for now, its' only tonight. There is no tomorrow, or at least that's how we feel. And then there's the fall.... It's the moment when we come back down. When we wake up the next morning. When we realize what just happened and the awful decisions we just made. And sometimes we're in denial about it. We try to run from it like it never happened, but we know it happened - it's shameful. It's humiliating. In the end, it's like we're holding onto this rope for dear life, but we're too afraid to open our eyes and look down because we know we'll see how bad of a situation we've gotten ourselves into. We feel the shame, the resentment, the self-loathing. So we keep our eyes closed and climb higher up the rope, throw 'em back, and fly higher into the night, knowing we'll feel the same way tomorrow, but ignoring the feeling because we're in the now - we're just holding on for tonight. |
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