| The Smiths – There Is a Light That Never Goes Out Lyrics | 11 years ago |
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I identify with this song sooooo very much. My entire family passed away in a freak plane accident and orphaned me in July '10 and this song summed up exactly how I felt right after the accident. I had come back to my hometown and was surrounded by my friends the entire time. I'll explain further as the lyrics go: "Take me out tonight. Where there's music and there's people. And they're young and alive" -My friends took me out the night the accident happened and we went TPing and acted like high schoolers even though we were 24-25. I was so thankful for that momentary break from being so unbearably sad and depressed. "Driving in your car, I never never want to go home, Because I haven't got one, Anymore" -My boyfriend drove most of the night and we never went to my parents house at all. We stayed at my uncles because I truly felt that I didn't have a home anymore, it wouldn't be the same now that it was empty. I never wanted the night to end because going home meant having to lie there and process what happened that day. "Take me out tonight, Because I want to see people and I Want to see life" -Again, just another plea to keep my mind off of everything. I didn't want to be faced with the reality of death, I wanted my friends and family to keep me occupied. "Driving in your car. Oh, please don't drop me home . Because it's not my home, it's their home, and I'm welcome no more" -Again, I just really didn't want to be alone. I didn't want to go to my house and though it wasn't like I wasn't welcome, but the thought of going through their personal things just seemed like such a privacy violation and it made me uncomfortable. "And if a double-decker bus. Crashes into us .To die by your side, Is such a heavenly way to die. And if a ten-ton truck Kills the both of us To die by your side Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine" -This has kind of a double meaning to me. One being that I envisioned my family saying something similar about the plane crash. That they were fortunate to die together and quickly and without pain. I am glad they were able to be together, but at the same time, I almost wished I could've been there with them. "The privelege is mine" -The second meaning was kind of how I felt about my boyfriend and I. I didn't want to die, or him to die, but if we were going to, I wanted to be with him when it happened. I don't know, perhaps it was really morbid thinking on my part given the circumstances or what. "Take me out tonight. Take me anywhere, I don't care I don't care, I don't care" -This really just pushed the feeling that I had of not knowing where I wanted to be, I couldn't be happy anywhere, I just wanted my mind off of anything and I wanted to keep running away from the situation at the time. "And in the darkened underpass. I thought oh God, my chance has come at last (but then a strange fear gripped me and I Just couldn't ask)" -I think this hints to the brief notion that I kind of was suicidal, or had at least wished I was with them when they died so we could have all died together, but then I was snapped out of that notion, not necessarily by fear, but with a realization that I couldn't leave everyone else I loved. "Take me out tonight Oh, take me anywhere, I don't care I don't care, I don't care" -Still pushing that point. "Driving in your car I never never want to go home Because I haven't got one, da... Oh, I haven't got one" -Still reiterating that I didn't feel like I had a home if they weren't going to be there. The "la da da" part really felt fitting because I felt so matter-of-fact about the situation. Like, I recalled telling a gas station cashier that my family died like it was no big deal. I was a bit numb at that point. "Oh, there is a light and it never goes out There is a light and it never goes out...(repeat)" -This totally just seems like it was talking about their memories. Like they were the lights and their lives and memories would never be forgotten. They may have passed but we were all going to do our best to remember them and we always will. |
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| José González – Crosses Lyrics | 11 years ago |
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I can hardly listen to this song without crying. My mom, dad, little sister and dogs (my whole family) all passed away in a plane crash in July '10 when I was 25 and these lyrics and the tone just reminds me of them. "Don't you know that I'll be around to guide you. Through your weakest moments to leave them behind you. Returning nightmares, only shadows. We'll cast some light and you'll be alright. We'll cast some light and you'll be alright for now." These specific lines just sound like they're coming straight from them to me, like they will watch over me and be there somehow, at least when I need it. But the "for now" part just makes it seem like I have to do some of the work on my own and I need to be strong for myself as well. "Crosses all over, heavy on your shoulders. The sirens inside me waiting to step forward. Disturbing silence darkens your sight." This part along with all of the cross references just reminds me of the funerals and church services and such. My family was Christian but I am now an atheist and I felt guilty about it at first, hence, "heavy on my shoulders". "The streets outside your window overflooded. People staring, they know you've been broken. Repeatedly reminded by the looks on their faces. Ignore them tonight and you'll be alright." Just reminds me of how the crash was really big news in my town and how people just kind of swarmed me and my family, people not knowing how to react to us or treat us, or me, especially, since I was orphaned. Mostly their presence was comforting and appreciated but sometimes it was just overly stressful and debilitating. It's especially true about the "looks on their faces". I could be having an ok time, or be out with friends trying to get my mind off of everything, and people I knew would just give me that pitiful look or bring it up and I would feel awful again. I feel like the last line about ignoring it and I'll be alright was another one that came from my family. All and all, this song has both torn me up and given me a lot of strength in how I've dealt with this situation. I don't know why he wrote it, and I don't know that I really want to know. But it's been the summary of how I've felt and I'm thankful for it. |
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