| The Goo Goo Dolls – Name Lyrics | 12 years ago |
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I think what makes this song great is that so many people can relate to it. For me it's on a very personal note: "Even though the moment passed me by I still can't turn away"- Before I left for the army I had been with this girl for over 2 years. I loved her dearly. She loved me just as much. We would tell each other everything and help each other out. I wanted to propose to her but never came around to doing it. I regret it so much to this day. "All the dreams you never thought you'd lose, got tossed along the way"- We spend almost every day with each other. We would talk about having a family together. How our children would look, where'd we live. All as we lay together, her head on my chest. Then I left for the Army and didn't propose to her. "Letters that you never meant to send, got lost or thrown away"- During Basic Training in Fort Benning, GA i sent a whole lot of letters to her. At the time she was living with her divorced father who, after she read the letters, threw them away because he told her to stop "dreaming" that we'd be together. I was gone and deployed to Afghanistan. "Now we're grown up orphans that never knew their names. We don't belong to no one that's a shame"- She had grown up in a broken home with an abusive drunk father that would usually hit her mother. She had to learn how to take care of herself more or less. She felt she didn't belong there. She didn't deserve to be there. "You could hide beside me, maybe for a while. And I won't tell no one you're name."- Getting to know someone's "name" doesn't necessarily mean literally. For us telling each other our names was getting to know each other. telling each others our secrets. She would always come to me when things got bad and I wouldn't tell anyone the real things that were happening in her life. I wouldn't tell no one her "Name". I would make sure I would do anything to make sure that if she needed to talk to me I'd be there. "Scars are souvenirs you never lose. The past is never far"- Later on she got married and had a daughter with an abusive husband. She is now divorced. She had to deal with the scars of her childhood and the past of her relationship. I took my scars of being away from her in Afghanistan. And knowing that she had gotten married. It hurt me a lot. But i would still be there for her when she needed to talk to me, even if it was just by laptop or sat phone. "Did you lose yourself somewhere out there? Did you get to be a star?"- She had seemed to have gotten lost in this idea of a perfect marriage, when it truly wasn't what she had wanted. She thought that in that marriage she would be shown what she truly was. As beautiful and bright as a star. That wasn't the case. Again I was there when she needed me. Listening to her cry on the phone. And there I was fighting for my country trying to become my own star with honor. But even when i got lost in the customs of the Army she would always remind me that I still loved her. "Don't it make you sad to know that life; is more than who we are"- In the army we were taught this and especially in almost any relationship you're in, it's not usually about who you are but what you do and how you treat people that people will remember you by. Even though she was married and divorced she admitted that she still loved me and missed me: not for who i was but because I had been there for her when she needed me the most. And that extent that I would go to make her happy. "You grew up way to fast. Now there's nothing to believe and reruns all become our history"- She had her first daughter at 19 making it hard be a young mother. She had to grow up fast. After her first marriage she tried it again. She had another daughter with that husband who was also a jerk and asshole that i wanted to beat the shit out of. Sound familiar? She is currently finishing the divorce with him. Again I was there when she cried, when she missed me, when she wished so bad for me to come home... "A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio. And I won't tell no one you're name"- Most of the time I would talk to her I would be coming back from guard duty or patrol exhausted as hell, going to go listen to Pandora on my laptop in the barracks. This was usually the time that I would talk to her cause of the time difference. Again I would just keep what she told me to myself. I told her that I still loved her. And missed her. "I think about you all the time. But i don't need the same. It's lonely where you are come back down. And i won't tell them you're name"- I loved her and missed her everyday i was over there and still do today (i still talk to her). I would die for her and for her daughters. All i had wished was that there was some way to convince her to "come down" from the life that she had so that if she ever needed to tell me her "Name", her secrets, her fears, her love, her dreams, that i would be right there just as we were before i left; with her head on my chest, with her daughters forever as a family. And I would never tell a soul...But no matter how much i wish this i must understand that i should make her happy most of all. Even if that's not with me. I will miss her and love her for the remainder of my life. "But i don't need the same". |
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