| Counting Crows – Colorblind Lyrics | 7 years ago |
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I really love all the comments about this songs' connection to mental illness, its how I took it as well. (Particularly Lexs' comment about eating disorders and Dawson's about personality disorders). Borderline personality disorder and obsessive compulsive personality disorder (different from OCD) sticks out a lot to me as well, mostly with the black and white thinking. "Coffee black and egg white." It just makes me think of the blandness of depression and the despair of not being able to vocalize or explain anything going on inside your own mind. "Taffy stuck and tongue tied, stutter shook and uptight". "I am covered in skin, no one gets to come in" this makes me think of how those who have to deal with this kind of trial shy away from help, particularly with the eating disorder. It also for me draws notes of post traumatic stress disorder or even borderline personality disorder, where everything people do to or around you is just too much. It all hurts and all stings like your skin is raw with nerves. "I am folded, and unfolded, and unfolding" like losing your mind, slowly feeling yourself unravel, and then at the end of it he still pulls it back in with a firm "I am fine". I guess for me the largest question of this song is if the "I am fine" is denial or a tired sort of self acceptance. |
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| Mayday Parade – Miserable at Best Lyrics | 8 years ago |
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I really heard some bitterness in this song, or is it just me? Especially with the opening line: "Katie don't cry I know, you're trying your hardest." It's like when you love someone so much it kills you, but no matter how much love you have, it can't make things right. So you gotta let go. But its still so hard to let go, because you love them. That whole impossible circle you get when you have a bad break up. |
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| Marianas Trench – Alibis Lyrics | 8 years ago |
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I definitely think this is about his eating disorder, first of all. I experienced one too in my early teens and this album helped get me through it. In the early stages of the recovery from the eating disorder, you just "kick and scream" and try everything you can to fight the doctors, your family, your friends, ect. I feel like this song is in the middle or late stages of recovery. Personally, I was just in a huge rut because I wasn't better yet, not by a long shot, but I wasn't struggling as much weight wise since they had force fed me. I wanted to get better, but I didn't, and it was a huge mess of confusion. "I'll kick and scream but it never changes anything". Fight the doctors all you want, but when you're killing your body you lose all legal rights to your body. "I could spill my guts out wearing my best little girl pout." Whether spilling your guts refers to purging or giving therapists the emotional bull shit they want, I'm not sure. Either one is accurate. "This is not the man I hoped to be and I'm just trying to stop the bleeding". This wasn't how you picture your life going, hooked up to machines and cussing out your family for simply trying to help you. 'Trying to stop the bleeding' I feel refers to why you got sucked into the eating disorder in the first place. It was a self harming coping mechanism to deal with some deep pain you weren't sure how else to deal with. "I don't know how to word it, I just started to deserve it". I knew I was treating the people around me like shit. They were trying to make up for what they'd done yet I still shut them down. I knew that was on me, not them. Anything that happened to me now was on me, not them. "All my faces are alibis". I feel like this addresses the bitterness and the fact that you realize your misery now is of your own making. I felt like I was using my past as an excuse and since now the people who wronged me were trying to make it better, me refusing their help and me being miserable was on me now, not them. I knew it, but I kept on doing it. "There's nothing familiar here anymore to anyone or anything enough to feel aliv e". When you're in recovery its a constant struggle for motivation to fight that god awful voice in your head commanding you to stop eating. It was hard to find the motivation to just keep BREATHING, but I suppose that's just depression. "And I still taste that sickness and it makes me crazy without it at best". This soon in recovery, the eating disorder is always there, and it feels like its only a breath away if you want to allow yourself to be consumed by it again. Since it was your coping mechanism, now that its taken away it feels like you want to crawl out of your own skin. "I'm in the same place I used to be, but I'm trying harder not to be". You still may be at a terrible weight, you still may be a vicious creature trying to defend the eating disorder and what its doing to you. But the difference now is you don't want to be anymore. At least you're trying to be a better person. "Don't surface, don't surface, and I feel so damn worthless". This is the line that gets to me the most. Trying so hard to push the ugliness and bitterness inside you down, despite the depression and everything in you that's saying you're a piece of shit who doesn't even deserve to be alive. I have never heard a more validating song. Freaking love Marianas Trench <3 |
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| Hozier – Like Real People Do Lyrics | 8 years ago |
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Freshmen year of college, I hadn't been with a guy in a very long time and the last experience I had had two years prior hadn't really been consensual. There was this man who was just as broken as I was (though he was better at hiding it) and put up with me being nasty as a way of protecting myself. Our friendship always consisted of meeting up every now and then in a date format. Our interactions always felt like a dance. He'd come closer and I'd bite like a feral dog and when I came closer he'd pull away as if I was made of flames. When we eventually did make love six months later, I started having a panic attack. He started to get off of me and I wouldn't let him because if he left I knew it would break me.. He asked what I needed and I told him I didn't know. He then put this on to calm me down and it worked like a charm. In the past I had had sex, but this was the first time I had made love. Things didn't work out with him, but this song will always make me think of how his stubble felt under my lips and how his hair smelled like trees. |
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| McFly – Too Close for Comfort Lyrics | 8 years ago |
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I just love how bitter this song is. He apologizes for making her cry, but at the same time he says "but its getting late" as if he's tired of investing his emotions into her and trying to make her feel better. He's just done with her shit. He wants her and would open himself to her if she would just drop some of the barriers, but he knows that's not going to happen because that's not who she is, and the song is like the bitter acceptance process. So much emotion in this song! |
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| McFly – Too Close for Comfort Lyrics | 8 years ago |
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I just love how bitter this song is. He apologizes for making her cry, but at the same time he says "but its getting late" as if he's tired of investing his emotions into her and trying to make her feel better. He's just done with her shit. He wants her and would open himself to her if she would just drop some of the barriers, but he knows that's not going to happen because that's not who she is, and the song is like the bitter acceptance process. So much emotion in this song! |
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| McFly – Too Close for Comfort Lyrics | 8 years ago |
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I just love how bitter this song is. He apologizes for making her cry, but at the same time he says "but its getting late" as if he's tired of investing his emotions into her and trying to make her feel better. He's just done with her shit. He wants her and would open himself to her if she would just drop some of the barriers, but he knows that's not going to happen because that's not who she is, and the song is like the bitter acceptance process. So much emotion in this song! |
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| The 1975 – Robbers Lyrics | 8 years ago |
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I know the actual meaning has already been explained by the writers, but this is what I felt and understood when I first heard it. The song starts off as him finding her and thinking she's beautiful. She's stressed and edgy and so she moderately accepts him into her life despite being distant and not trusting really anyone. ("Her balaclava is starting to chafe"). I think the gun in this song represents power. "When she gets his gun" is representing the fact that she has the reigns in the relationship and she can control what's going down. Also, note how at this point HE'S the one begging HER. I feel like when the chorus first plays its showing how even though they have their rough points and she is cold, they're giving it another shot. She's giving him a chance into her life and he's giving her another chance with the gun to "shoot", or put a start to their relationship. Perhaps friends with benefits? The next stanza goes into the fact they give it a shot, ("if you never shoot you never know") and opens herself emotionally, perhaps by sleeping with him. Note, how this time SHE'S the one begging HIM. Now, I first heard the bridge differently than the actual lyric. I heard "well now that you've got your gun, its much harder now to place your c*m." as in now that they've had sex he's acting distant and isn't really feeling it. They have the gun, or the power, and she's saying she will finally agree to progress their relationship or agree she caught feelings. ("And I'll shoot it if that's what you ask") But she also points out that things have changed and if they were to both drop the cold facade and really look at each other, the dynamic in their friendship has changed so drastically. ("But if you just take off your mask, you'll see that everything has gone wrong.") Perhaps she wants him and likes this change, or perhaps she thinks that they've changed too much for this to be. I personally felt as if she wants him and thinks deep down, he was being just as cold as her from the get go. This next part also gets more ambiguous. ("Now everybody's dead"). I feel like he shot her down or backed out, or put an end to their relationship. Perhaps because he felt they changed too much, or he is no longer interested after actually getting what he had been begging for so long. "She says 'babe, you look so cold'". She sees him as he is and he is now playing the cold lover. She assumed that role at the beginning, but now he's the one ignoring calls or denying a relationship. Her heart is broken and they are both miserable. ("The sky is gone, the sky is hidden") The title "robbers" is more obvious, demonstrating the fact they rob love and affection from each other, and while she was the one doing this in the beginning, in a twist at the ending he shot down any chance they had so now all the bridges are burnt. Its a deep ass song, and I haven't been able to stop listening to it since hearing it! |
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| Hozier – Take Me to Church Lyrics | 8 years ago |
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Okay, this is gonna sound very atheist, heads up. I took it slightly more literal than the majority of comments here. It still reminds me of homosexuality, but more sexuality in general. I suppose what I took more literal is the chorus itself. Growing up in a highly religious family (Mormon) they took it a bit too far. Good people, but the faith can be oppressive if the people get too carried away. I fought my homosexuality for the majority of my late childhood and adolescence. It was ugly. I think of all the people (like me) who tried to sacrifice an essential part of themselves for the sake of a church. I feel like the first verse is talking about his lover and the guilty passion they have there. He loves her because she doesn't give a fuck. It was probably good for him. "Every sunday's getting more bleak, fresh poison each week". It talks about going to church every week and being reminded of your nature as a sinner (gay or just a sexual being in general) and poisoning yourself with the guilt and self hatred of fighting who you are. "We were born sick, you heard them say it" I think this is referring to original sin. Or, in my case, the Church told me it was true I was born homosexual, and my nature isn't sin, but acting on it in any way IS a sin. It makes me of think of that contradiction. A lot of it is referring to his sexual endeavors as a form of worship and absolution. I really love that about this song. Its edgy. The chorus I feel is directed towards the parasitic relationship the narrator had with this particular church. "I'll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife" every time you go to confess, you're giving them more ammunition to use it against you and to push more guilt into your mind. Its giving the church more power. "Offer me that deathless death" I feel like he's implying that ignoring the way he feels about this woman is pretty much death without dying. Its not a way to live. When he refers to himself as a pagan and her as the sunlight, it makes me think of how in the early days of Christianity, they'd put pagans to death for being...well, pagan. Its a forbidden love and worship. Considered wrong and heathen, yet still beautiful in some lights. "That's a fine looking high horse, what you got in the stable? We're a lot of starving faithful". It brings to mind 'get off your high horse' when someone thinks they're better than you. Such as those who are clergy or presiding over you in a religious sense. He's asking what they have inside that truly makes them better, and that the followers are starving in their quest for absolution and spirituality. "There is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin". It makes me think of my first love. We didn't realize we were homosexual. We were 13 and innocent and sheltered. And then as we got older and started learning it was considered a sin. There was nothing more innocent than the way we felt about each other or the way we kissed. The entire song is definitely about sexuality as whole, hetero or homo or whatever. As I emphasized before, I feel like it expresses the unhealthy relationship a person can get with a church. MAY IT BE NOTED: Religion can be a beautiful thing. I am in no way against it. However, it can become unhealthy if misused. I feel like that is what Hozier is trying to say as well. |
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| Aidan Hawken – Walking Blind (feat. Carina Round) Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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I feel its about someone finding out that something terrible happened to their loved one, and slowly working through it together. Maybe its because the first time I heard this song it was on an episode of "The Closer" and a boy had been raped, but that's still what comes to mind. It makes me think of when my dad found out what had happened to me as a child, and the slow process into recovery. |
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| 30 Seconds to Mars – City of Angels Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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When I was 17, (Ironically) my family moved from my hometown to another town farther up north. I knew I was unhappy where I lived growing up, and had been that way for a long time. But I didn't realize how miserable I had been until we moved to that blessed new town where I met so many amazing people. I got a job nannying for these kids that changed my life forever, I came out of the closet, I met an amazing girl that would come to mean a lot to me, it was just beautiful. I had forgotten what it was like to be happy. Even though the move was during my senior year, and there were lots of personal trials to overcome, it changed my life forever and once we moved into the new house and began meeting people, there wasn't an ounce of me that wanted to go back. I was instantly happy. This song takes me back to that feeling of relief after such a long hell. I got the time I needed to recover. I learned what it was to HOPE again. |
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| Coldplay – Fix You Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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Personally, this song makes me think of someone who had sex before they are ready, and how hard that is. When I was sixteen I remember holding my friend as she cried because of how much she regretted giving her virginity to the guy she thought she loved. Both of us growing up in an extremely religious environment, it was traumatic for her. "When you're too in love to let it go" "When you lose something you can't replace, when you love someone but it goes to waste" "When you get what you want but not what you need" All of these just really hit home for me there. |
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| Sleeping At Last – I'll Keep You Safe Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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I feel this is about someone who has a relationship with a child. For me, the first thing that came to mind was when I looked into the eyes of my nephew for the first time. It could be taken as a parent, raising their child and showing them the beauty of the world around them. |
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| Imagine Dragons – It's Time Lyrics | 9 years ago |
| @[Yzermaneely:91] I'm gay and Mormon and coming to grips with it....So I have somewhat similar feelings with this song | |
| The National – Terrible Love Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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For me, it reminds me of leaving the Mormon church. To any Mormons out there, I apologize and hope I don't offend. I suffered so much being a member of that church. Like any religion it has its upsides and can accomplish beautiful things. But it has cultish aspects that totally screwed with my head growing up. I denied who I was as a person and who I could love because of a fear of disappointing my parents and dealing with the criticism of everyone around me. When I sinned (I'm gay) , I HATED myself. I would go into repentance for so long and try to forgive myself and then I'd have a sinful thought and I'd go through the process all over again. Maybe this wasn't the church's intention, but its the way it was for me. My personality exploited me when it came to the church members' already very.....dedicated nature. When the curtain was finally lifted for me, (Its a long story how) not long after I finally came to grips with my sexuality. I was walking away from how I grew up and how I'd always thought. I realized that the love I had shared with the church was a "terrible love". It was a path with my demons and my spiders and yet I was walking straight in. It was a doomed place to be, I could NEVER be the perfection I had tried so hard to obtain. I decided I wasn't going to follow my family down the rabbit hole that lead me to my own insanity, just like how the rabbit hole lead to Alice's from Alice in Wonderland. I was stepping back from that spider filled path. "It takes an ocean not to break" That makes me think that it took more strength than I had not to break with everything I was told to do. (Never be married, never love, see the internet for specific rules in the Mormon lifestyle.) I couldn't do it. It wasn't humanly possible. Some can. Some can't. Some will, some won't. It was a terrible love that I had to give up, just like an abusive relationship. |
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| The Civil Wars – Poison & Wine Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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Okay, this is gonna sound TOTALLY weird. Bear with me. My family is Mormon, and as you know, Mormons will still put people who are homosexual into heterosexual marriages. A friend of mine actually was one of these people. Even though my gay friend and his straight wife chose to be together, everyone in his life were pushing them to marry. He felt no attraction to her whatsoever, and she knew that. So basically, it was an arranged marriage. The song makes me think of people in similar situations. My friend is miserable, but he's been with his wife long enough that he loves her in a way, and she him. He can't love her that way, but at the same time, he always will love her. She's earned a place in his heart, and he in hers. They're always on the brink of divorce but are pushing themselves to stay because now they've got something deeper keeping them together, even if attraction isn't in the mix. Its a complicated situation, and not one I necessarily agree with, but hey, its his life, and he knows what's best for him. I feel like this song kind of expresses that whole conflict. |
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| Foster the People – Pumped Up Kicks Lyrics | 9 years ago |
| Its complicated stuff. Bullying is really bad, but at the same time, the song addresses that the killer was freaking crazy. Its dark. Its putting us into the mind of the shooter, which is uncomfortable because its not black and white. Its in the mind of someone who is mentally unstable and in pain and just looking to GIVE pain. He's pretty messed up. For me personally, this doesn't portray the victims as the bad guys. It actually freaks me out a lot, haha. Its deep. Because in the mind of the shooter, he IS in the right. He feels this is justice finally being served. Whether he was wrong isn't the point of the song. The point is to give us a glimpse into what's going on in the head of the crazy. | |
| fun. – Carry On Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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Its interesting. I had a traumatic experience with my youth minister growing up. I only told people about it a few months ago, three hours after it stopped happening, and when the opportunity for my family to move came up, my parents jumped at it. That was two months ago, and while I am so much happier here, its still so hard. I spent all night trying to sleep and couldn't and tried to distract myself, but it wasn't working. I started feeling suicidal and called a few hotlines. Something I've never done before. Then this song came on my pandora. I just feel like it spoke to me. I feel like fun. was speaking to me directly, telling me that while they have no idea what I went through, he knows enough to tell me to never look back. I just feel like I have the strength to push through. |
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| The 1975 – Me Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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I feel like he's looking at himself and all the things he's done, and he's so caught up in mental illness or addiction or whatever, he doesn't even feel it anymore. The drug addiction or the eating disorder or the alcoholism or intense depression, (Maybe all of the above) that he's stopping to ask himself "don't you mind that you're hurting everyone you love." "I gave you something you can never give back, don't you mind." The first time he tried drugs, that was it. He was hooked. He can never take that back. "You've seen your face like a heart attack, don't you mind." He looked in the mirror and didn't even recognize himself anymore. "I'm sorry I'd rather be high than watching the family die." To cope with what's going on his family, (Possibly because of his issues) he's doing drugs. He's so unhappy and lifeless, he wants to end his life. He's asking himself, "don't you care that you're about to end your life forever?" And at the same time asking the world if it would care. |
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| Lifehouse – Storm Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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I was really sick for a while. Like I was dying, had lost most of my hair, and ended up being connected to monitors to keep my heart going. Bad eating disorder. No matter how hard I tried to eat, I couldn't get it down. The voices in my head would take over. Before the discovery that I in fact had anorexia, I was the picture perfect Christian girl. Then suddenly after I was discovered, (It just seemed normal to me, to survive on eating so little. Food made me feel sick.) I was hurled through treatment, therapy, hospitals, residential facilities, and a living hell. I lost sight of who I was, of who my Father is. I felt totally alone, like He had abandoned me. After all, hadn't He put me in this situation? I had been living and praying and reading my scriptures like life was normal. I just excluded food from the equation. Why didn't He warn me of what I was doing? Why didn't he reach out a hand and stop all this from happening? Or why couldn't He just smite me now and stop all the tests and blood transfusions and unbearable stomach pain, and the inner mental battle as the voices fought for control in my head? I literally felt like I was possessed by demons. That's still how I describe my illness. Like I was possessed. I felt like somebody else was controlling me. I even attempted suicide, but my sister walked in on me. This song kind of explains how I felt. Eventually I just let go, despite the fact I was in one hell of a storm. I knew He would get me out of this, despite how dark everything was. "If I could just see you, everything would be alright. If I could see you, this darkness would turn to light." I wanted so bad for Him to just appear one night and cast the devils out of me. "And I will walk on water" I could do the impossible. I could conquer my eating disorder. I could live. "And you will catch me if I fall." If this did kill me because of the damage I had already done, then so be it. I had a Father would be waiting for me because I tried. God knows I tried. He was there the whole time. Through my loving family and friends and doctors. Just because I didn't recognize Him, didn't mean he was there. |
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| Ed Sheeran – This Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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This reminds me of me and my fiancee, as cheesy as that sounds. I was THAT girl. When we were young, high school age, (We've been dating for a long time.) I had nursed a crush since we were little. (His name is scribbled all over my fifth grade journals.) Then somehow I got his attention in tenth grade, but this scumbag who I'd had feelings for a few months had told me he was in love with me, so I left my current fiancee for this scumbag. He was not a good guy. Kinda messed me up a lot. But I hear this, and it makes me think of my fiancee and how I broke his heart as I fell into the other guy's arms. He took me back even after I had left him for another guy. I had no idea how hard my fiancee had fallen for me. We had gone on a few non exclusive dates, and I just thought we were good friends. Then, after I finally got the strength to leave the scumbag, my fiancee was there to pick me up. He showed me what it really meant to love. We've been together ever since, and we are now about to graduate college. As you can tell, this song makes me think of my fiancee's perspective. It also makes me think of our first time, all gentle and sweet and beautiful....even if it was awkward. |
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| Birdy – Skinny Love (Bon Iver cover) Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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When I was a freshmen in high school, I had my first love. Most of the time people look at their first love with fondness and don't really take it seriously. I took mine very, VERY seriously. It was unhealthy. But he was emotionally abusive and controlling. Now don't kill me for saying this, but anorexia does come into play for me. Even though I was already extremely underweight, he told me I could still stand to lose more weight. So I did. My hair began falling out and my periods stopped. All for him. Though he told me otherwise, the love was never reciprocated. I went from a cheerful, happy child, to a literally dying freshmen. The title "Skinny love" also to me means something else besides the anorexia, it was also how unstable our relationship was, and shallow, and there really was nothing there. It was doomed to fail. "Tell my love to wreck it all. Cut out all the ropes and let me fall." I asked him, begged him on multiple occasions, to let me go. I wasn't strong enough to walk out on my own. But he never respected my wishes, showing up again. I was pathetic. And weak. I dealt with constant verbal abuse from him. I attempted suicide twice in that time, both to no avail. Oh it gets better. Eventually a year later, he just changed his mind. He wouldn't call me, talk to me at school, nothing. It was devastating. He had apparently been cheating on me that entire time. He had broken up with her and decided he didn't want me either. I was hospitalized a couple months later, attached to machines, feeding tubes, catheterized, and fighting for my life. It took me a very long time to get over him. But I did. The cycle broke. I thought what we had was one in a million. But it was just skinny love. |
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| Christina Perri – Jar of Hearts Lyrics | 10 years ago |
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I escaped from a cult that I was raised in. It totally brainwashed its people, forcing them to give up their lives, their faith, their Christianity. (They claim to be Christians but they're not.) I used to be one of the blind pursuers. I believed with all my heart. I had a constant self hatred, and starved myself because they taught that eating was a sin. "Who do you think you are?" Who in the hell does this so called "prophet" think he is? Right now my parents are pressuring me so hard to come back. They punish me and shun me because I left it. I'm seventeen and can't legally leave the house. But the second I turn eighteen, I'm gone. Every now and then that church calls me back, with its brainwashing capabilities. My dad gets angry when I say no, and physically punishes me for it. But I'll never, ever go back. |
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| Christina Perri – Arms Lyrics | 10 years ago |
| I was sexually abused as a child. This song kinda makes me think of my amazing boyfriend. The line "you put your arms around me and I'm home." That was a huge step for me, allowing him in to hold me. I put up a thousand walls because of what's happened, but I love him more than I've ever loved anybody. He stayed with me despite my constant running and break downs and pushing him away. I can now say he is my husband of fourteen years. (We were one of those high school sweet hearts) | |
| Sara Evans – A Little Bit Stronger Lyrics | 10 years ago |
| This got me through the worst break up of my life. It perfectly describes what it was like. Getting slowly over the guy who ran over your heart. | |
| Christina Perri – Distance Lyrics | 10 years ago |
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This reminds me of my first love back in high school. Although I'm a grown woman now, that was still the most passionate of all loves I had. Anyone who says teenage love isn't real, is full of it. It felt very real. However, it usually doesn't last. He was my best friend, and my tutor. He was a couple grades ahead of me. I was suffering from anorexia very badly, and he was the only thing in my life at the time that could make me happy. However, he also made me very miserable. The line that still gets me is the line: "And I keep waiting for you to take me, and you keep waiting to save what we had." He had a girlfriend at the time, (Yeah, I know. Shame on me.) We could never be together. But I waited. And I waited. And he told me he loved me. So I waited. Loving him way more than what was healthy. Then they broke up, and instead of actually following on his word to be with me, (I had NOTHING to do with their break up.) he dropped off the face of the earth. Wouldn't talk to me, wouldn't call me, wouldn't say hi to me in the hallways. Though I basically said "fuck you" to him when he came crawling back, there's that part of me that will always be waiting, as I had waited for years. |
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| Gary Jules – Mad World (Tears for Fears cover) Lyrics | 10 years ago |
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When I was freshmen was one of the most difficult points of my life. I listened to this song constantly, literally physically dying. I was dying of anorexia, and my best friend, my boyfriend, (We had been together since we were ten. We had been together a very, VERY long time) was constantly telling me to starve myself. He even had another girl friend that I knew about. I even saw them together. I looked at everyone around me and saw all their flaws. I was too underweight to process anything but my misery, and the pain of seeing him with someone else. My dreams of being with the bastard, of being perfect, of being thin, were what were killing me. "I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad. The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had." I didn't want to die, even. I believed in a life after death. I just wanted to stop existing. To stop feeling. To stop seeing all the evil and pain around me. I used to have tons of friends and be very popular, but the illness took it all away from me....and so did the boy. I was on my own, feeling like I was slowly disappearing. And I wanted to. To disappear and turn so deep inside myself I was nothing anymore. I got medical attention since then and am now a perfectly normal, functioning human being. I even found the guy of my dreams who slowly helped me back up to weight. But still. This song takes me back to how I felt. |
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| Taylor Swift – Dear John Lyrics | 10 years ago |
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From around fifth grade to ninth, I had my first love. It was the most passionate, sincere love I have ever had. It was also unhealthy. I know I'm a bit old to be listening to Taylor Swift, (I'm a sophomore in college) but I find the lyrics so true. This guy had a girl friend, and by constantly telling me that he would be with me, but she was so skinny and pretty, I starved myself. I was never over 107 pounds from being 5'6. Over five years I dropped down to 83 pounds at 5'7.. I developed a pretty severe eating disorder. It almost took my life. "Don't you think I was too young to be messed with, the girl in the dress cried the whole way home." His name was Thomas John, and I'd call him "TJ" for short. "Well maybe it's me and my blond optimism to blame. Or maybe its you and your sick need to give love and take it away." He did have that sick need. One moment telling me I was his true love, the next telling me I was fat. My mom couldn't understand why I couldn't see how awful he was, but still I went on. I was unhealthily in love and having starved my brain, I wasn't making rational decisions. I'm recovered now, and with the man I hope to spend the rest of my life with. "I'm shining like fireworks over your SAD, EMPTY TOWN." |
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| Imagine Dragons – Demons Lyrics | 10 years ago |
| This song is basically how I felt coming out of the closet in my youth. Just the confusion and the wanting to shelter my highly religious family from what they perceived to be evil. I kept it all inside for years, and then finally I let go when I turned twenty and moved out of the house. " This is my kingdom come, it's where my demons hide." | |
| Alanis Morissette – Uninvited Lyrics | 10 years ago |
| This song actually makes me think of a molestation. When I was eleven I went through something similar. Part of me was flattered that the disgusting vermin was interested in me, but I didn't like what he did to me and made me do to him. He wasn't allowed, he wasn't invited.... | |
| Jason Mraz – Absolutely Zero Lyrics | 10 years ago |
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I was a junior in high school when I met my first love. I loved him with all my heart, but I hated my life in my hometown and I wanted to get out so bad. But, when he and I got together, everything started to get better. Then when everything was at its best...my dad lost his job and got a new one a couple states over. I had the option to stay with my grandma (Who I didn't get along with) or go with my entire family to Ohio. This song makes me think of that decision. "Who am I to say this situation isn't great, when its my job to make the most of it." So true. It hurt so bad to leave him but I wanted to be free of all the pain that was back home. I think this song is about the deliberation of handing up an opportunity that means you have to move away from the one you love. I felt so guilty to leave him and wanted to show him it wasn't really my fault, truly it was my father's.... Ugh, this brings up so many memories! Yet I can't stop listening... |
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| Marianas Trench – Porcelain Lyrics | 10 years ago |
| I had struggled with anorexia my entire adolescence. I believe that's what Josh Ramsey wrote this song about. The line that gets to me is "and your breath comes crashing in, like perfect porcelain." Its so true. When you get healthy again, your breath comes crashing in and suddenly you think clearly and everything gets better. Its such a good song! | |
| Secondhand Serenade – A Twist In My Story Lyrics | 10 years ago |
| Its like when you see yourself from how somebody else sees you. In my case, God. I saw my life as God would see it and I realized how much love he has for me. "Thats what you get" is sort of saying how what came of it was what happened. For better or worse. :) | |
| The Naked And Famous – Punching in a Dream Lyrics | 11 years ago |
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This song makes me think of my anorexia. I've been struggling for a few years now, and this kinda reminds me of it. All the lights go down as I crawl into the spaces If I died on the screens Life tearing at the seams It was ruining my life. Watching my body die, I felt like I was watching a movie. Not really living it. Because SHE was in control of my body, not me. Way-yay-yay-yay-yay I don't ever wanna be here Like punching in a dream breathing life into my nightmare All my dreams were being taken away from me because of this illness. My dream to be a mother, theater, everything. If it falls apart I would surely wake it Bright lights turn me clean This is worse than it seems In the back of my head, if I didn't make it into the musical or something, I'd wake up the anorexia to take back over my life. It was my safe place. Bright lights remind me of the hospital, and how they turned me clean. They'll get through They'll get you In the place that you feel it the most When you're cornered When it's forming In the place that you wish was a ghost No matter how hard you push her away, she can still come back. Depressing, isn't it? Sometimes I wish she was a ghost and couldn't touch me anymore, but she's not. She's still feeding off my body. |
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| Christina Perri – Distance Lyrics | 11 years ago |
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My best friend. I loved him. He loved me. But he didnt want to lose me as a friend. It sucked. "Please dont stand so close to me, I'm having trouble breathing." It was so unfair. He would spend so much time around me and knew what it was doing to me. "And I keep waiting for you to take me. And you keep waiting to save what we had." It never happened. And I still regret the whole thing. He led me on for so long and I wasted so many tears on his behalf. |
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| The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus – Your Guardian Angel Lyrics | 11 years ago |
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That was me too. Especially those lines at the end. "Use me as you will, pull my strings just for a thrill. And I know I'll be okay, though my skies are turning gray." It hurt more to be with him than without him, or at least I told myself this. He was my first love, and we never dated, (He was dating another girl so it hurt to be around him. Even though he promised me he liked me too but didnt want to give up on his girlfriend.) but I loved him so much. He was my best friend too. Finally it took him breaking every one of his promises for me to break mine. I threw his poetry back in his face and ran. This song makes me sad, but it holds a lot of memories too. I can think of my boyfriend right now who happens to be the guy who patched my heart up after this guy hurt me. He is my true guardian angel ;) |
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| Taylor Swift – Tell Me Why Lyrics | 12 years ago |
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Yeah, I went through the exact same thing. Even though you might be feeling like a "You Belong With Me", I suggest you turn your story into a "White Horse" or "Dear John". Something just eventually hit me over the head and so I got mad. I listened to this and those two songs I just named to stay mad. Trust me, once you take a step back he'll start missing you and wanting you. Even if he doesnt say it. |
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| Taylor Swift – White Horse Lyrics | 12 years ago |
| Yep that was me and my best friend for a while. The bitterness and the pain in this song is so raw, I love it. Especially the line: "And there you are on your knees-begging for forgiveness, begging for me. Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry..." It's so true. All you ever wanted was for them to realize how much they care for you, but when he finally gets a clue, all the time you spent hurting kind of overrules the feelings for him. | |
| Gotye – Somebody That I Used To Know Lyrics | 12 years ago |
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See, I interpreted it the way I did because of a relationship I was in. It feels like Kimbra loved him much more than he loved her, even if he did care for her deeply. We can see this in the chorus and how upset he seems over the fact that she wont speak to him. He thought that she was fine and dandy with what happened and that it didn't really affect her...but it did. A lot. He hurt her without even realizing it while they were in the relationship, and she feels like he didn't really fill his side of the deal during the relationship and she would blame herself for everything that happened. " Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over. But had me believing it was always something that I'd done. And I don't want to live that way, reading into every word you say..." She's a lot more bitter than she had let on to him. When she suddenly ceases all contact in an effort to get over him, it surprises him and takes him off guard. He wanted to keep the friendship they had and he's upset and confused with how she is acting. Like I said, I was in this position in a relationship. Blaming the guy for being oblivious and communicating your hurt and your anger through your silence. |
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| Christina Perri – Distance Lyrics | 12 years ago |
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I totally know what you mean. This song reminds me of my relationship with my best friend. We had a bit of an interesting past when we were little, and became very close again in high school. He has a girlfriend that hes been with since they were in seventh grade, (He's sixteen)but somehow I learned that my interpretation of what happened when were little is very different from his, due to a bit of a sickness I had had at the time. I had also forgotten a promise he had made me when we were little, but he hadn't. I ended up falling head over heels for this guy, I just came in a little too late. He doesn't want to give up on his girlfriend and I dont want him to either. So for now...we're stuck. We're going to suck it up and enjoy the special, unique friendship we share. And for her sake, it looks like I'm going to have to keep my distance. |
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| All Time Low – Remembering Sunday Lyrics | 12 years ago |
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See, in my head I have this whole story line going on with this song. ;) I see her as a prostitute who happened to be a friend of his. Or maybe a "friend with benefits", who had been hurt in the past. He ended up falling head over heals for her, and she kept on telling him "I don't believe in love." She just wanted the physical part of a relationship. Somewhere along the way, she realized she was falling for him and it scared her. So she ran. Most of the song is in the chorus, which is pretty self explanatory. He's trying to track her down before she does something stupid, and because he's absolutely in love with her and he wants to keep her safe. The end has to be my favorite. It suddenly dawns on him what happened, (Or maybe a tip from a neighbor) Personally I think that Juliet Simms' part is a goodbye letter, or a suicide letter. Most people say she was on a plane, but I think she killed herself. All of it was just too much and she decided to end it. "Keeping an eye on the world, from so many thousands of feet off the ground." Especially the "At home in the clouds" thing. |
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| Owl City – Fireflies Lyrics | 12 years ago |
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To me, I think of my big sister going off to college. One moment she was filing in her papers and then POOF she had to leave. I watched wide eyed as she packed and I realized that she probably wouldn't be coming back. As I went to bed, I reminisced, (The fireflies are the memories. Not to mention we would sneak out late and catch fireflies.) and was surprised to find myself in tears. ("Because they'd feel the open air, and leave teardrops everywhere.") To me, she filled my childhood with fairies and magic. Some of my memories include her trying to teach me how to dance. ("'Cuz I'd get a thousand hugs, from ten thousand lightning bugs...teach me how to dance.") The chorus is what I see the most. ("I'd like to make myself believe, that planet Earth turns slowly.") I realized just how quickly time flies and that childhood doesn't last forever. I didn't want to go to sleep, because I knew that when I woke up, she would be leaving. ("It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep.") "I got misty eyes as they said fairwell." This is me waving goodbye to all of our fond memories and adventures. "But I saved a few and I keep them in a jar." I realized that just because she was leaving, the memories and the love could last forever. I love this song so much. The first time I heard it I stopped and listened awhile. |
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| Damien Rice – Volcano Lyrics | 12 years ago |
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See, I think it's more of a one-night-stand thing, or something along those lines. Obviously she was head over heels for him, and all he wanted was the physical attraction. "I kissed your mouth and back. Thats all I need." And personally I see her literally on her knees, begging for him. "Don't hold yourself like that. You'll hurt your knees." I see them the next morning-her thinking that something would come from that night-and him telling her it was just a one night thing. She seems more bitter than he does, and I see her completely disgusted with him when he rejected her. "She's too young to treat" : She's too young to date or take seriously. |
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| Rufus Wainwright – Hallelujah (Leonard Cohen cover) Lyrics | 12 years ago |
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You're both right. I think he was talking about love through the ages, and how no matter what time it happened, love is love and heartbreak is heartbreak. He was speaking of Samson with the cutting of the hair, but it also was talking about Bathsheeba with the bathing on the roof. There's a painting I love where we see Batheeba bathing and from behind on a balcony, we see David watching her with the most tortured expression on his face. Either way, this song is a work of art. |
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