My thoughts are so tangeld right now. Like my earbuds always are. I've spent the last hour trying to unwravel them.
Koda, you're on my mind all of the time. Your smile is contagious. You don't say much, but you make every word mean something. You're thoughtful and clever and charming in a way that no one else notices.
I hold on to those moments. Lifeguarding with you at the pool. We're required to wear sunglasses, but I can always tell when you're staring at me, and when I catch you, you smile in that bowed way, that makes my heart swells.
Today you wrote my name in a heart on the weekly pool schedule and I was tongue tied and unprepared. I weakly walked away and I'm kicking myself for my awkwardness. What is wrong with me? I want you. So bad. What is wrong with me?